Wednesday, August 31, 2011


60 days until Halloween...

85 Days until Thanksgiving!

115 days until Christmas Day!
Just in case you need updating.......

The holiday's are getting closer! I am excited about them! My favorite is Christmas for what it means! I just love any holiday! Speaking of holidays, Labor Day is Monday. I think I am off.....

We had prayer meeting tonight. It was a heartfelt service tonight. It was easy to feel the spirit of the Lord when Noots sings. There is so much feeling in the songs he sings. Always has been as long as I have known him.

Thinking about a lot of things, at some difficult places in my life right now. I love my kids and grandkids, but I need a chaos-free life and with 2 toddlers and an infant, that is very difficult to have. I don't want them to be homeless, but I don't want a stay on 6B either, no offense to anyone who has ever had to stay there, it is definitely a necessary place and if I had to go there I would. I am not making fun of anyone who has ever had to stay there. People I love dearly have had to stay there more than once. Close family has had to stay there. There is no shame in having to go there. The shame is when we need to be there and don't go.

The Edmonson County Homecoming is this Saturday starting at 9am. If you are local please try to be there. It was a lot of fun last year. Check my facebook profile for the link if you are on my friends list. They have good old fashioned gospel singing and other singing, vendors, food, good times. Enjoy!

The county fair starts soon as well. In the past I have entered canned goods and baked goods in the exhibits. I won a red ribbon once for my green beans. I still have it. I don't like the rides anymore, but I do like to go to the parade and visit the exhibit barn.
Psalm 46:10
Be stilll, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth
I love y'all.......
To be continued.......

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

My new bed!

61 days until Halloween...

86 Days until Thanksgiving!

116 days until Christmas Day!
Just in case you need updating.......

So, I bought new furniture last spring. I got the living room suit and a new queen bed with a new mattress and box spring. It was something I had wanted to get for a long time. We got the king size bed when we moved in this house, and I loved the size of the bed, I had all kinds of room and when Rick was alive, we both had all kinds of room. I don't have any queen sheets, so I will have to get some soon, I have kings on there, and they are sooooo big! There is so much more room in here! I am so excited! I would like to see if it would fit in a different corner, but I don't thing there is room and I would lose my ceiling fan over the I guess I will leave it where it is! I love it. It is so comfortable so far! Nick called me at work today and asked me if I would sleep on the couch, so he could sleep on my bed, his back was hurting and his mattress is old.....I said I might. I found this when I got home! YAY! My kids do some things for me sometimes! I do love them and Valarie cleaned the house and it actually looks clean! I am excited about that more than the new bed being put up! Hope I don't fall off the bed during the night lol!

It was a much better day today! Yesterday stressed me so terribly! I just didn't know what to do or how to handle it. It was much better today!

Bubba has a black eye. He ran into the corner of the table playing today and not watching where he was going. He is so very cute. He smiles most of the time unless he is told no, then he has a little fit, but he gets over it quickly!

I think this is about all for tonight. I hope that y'all have a great evening and wonderful rest of the week.

My cousin's son and his wife were blessed with twin sons today. They are both in the neonatal ICU. One is on the ventilator. Please remember them in your prayers. The hope is they will be breathing better in 24 hours.

I love y'all!
To be continued..............

Monday, August 29, 2011

feeling better ♥

62 days until Halloween...

87 Days until Thanksgiving!

117 days until Christmas Day!
Just in case you need updating.......

Well, I had a little meltdown yesterday! I went to bed about 7:30 last night and slept most of the night. Nick called me about 9:30 pm and woke me, he did not know how much trouble I had sleeping Saturday night. I got up and took a percogesic (over the counter pain med from Kroger, get the kind without benadryl and Kroger brand but you can not drive after you take one have to sleep it off! and it is non-drowsy the next morning). It really helps with the pain of arthritis. And it will help you sleep. I needed it. I will be going to sleep pretty soon tonight too. I am sitting up in bed with my laptop getting sleepy and I already have my CPAP on, just gotta take off the glasses in a few minutes and lie back to sleep. I do hope it comes soon! I hate waiting on that sleep fairy. Law and Order on the TV soon to change itself to Criminal Minds then Star Trek TNG and back to Law and Order (just in case I wake, something I like will already be on....) I have always slept with a TV on. Even when I was a child, my parents left the TV on all night. We lived in a 6 room house, living room and parents room in the front, kitchen and boys room in the middle and my room (aka the far room) and back porch last. The back porch was enclosed and a utility room of sorts. The wringer washer was there, the cistern was there, the water bucket was there, and yes, we had a dipper in the bucket and all drank from the dipper and socked it back in the bucket. Our was pans and tooth brushes were all kept there, and when we were little the potty was there. When we were old enough, the outhouse was about 50 yards out the back door. Did not matter the weather. The outhouse was the last place you went before bedtime, which was by 8:30 or 9 without fail but that TV stayed on all night. They watched the 10 o'clock news and whatever came on after, usually on channel 5, sometimes 13 until the station went off the air by midnight. Then there was this noise the TV made until Carl Tipton came on at 5am and it was time to get up for the day. When I was in high school, I caught the school bus by 6am.

Well, enough of that I guess. I really want to apologize for the melt down yesterday. It will be OK!

Now, I would like to ask again for you to remember a friend in prayer. The following song is one of her favorite songs. You don't have to know her name or why I am asking you to remember her in prayer, but God knows all so please remember her in prayer. Thanks!

There is a God
there is a God and only one
He made the earth and sun
He made all things
created man
according to
His plan

there is a God
and He is real
deep in my heart
His love I feel
when I am laid
beneath the sod
I'll see and know
there is a God

when I was lost
in sin and shame
the Blessed Savior came
He lifted me
on higher ground
for heaven I am bound

there is a God
and He is real
deep in my heart
His love I feel
when I am laid beneath the sod
I'll see and know there is a God

Please remember each other in prayer.
You never know what is going on in a persons life behind the smiles.

John 14:6
6Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.
I love y'all!
To be continued..........

Sunday, August 28, 2011

It was a long night

I am so tired right now. I never went to sleep last night. I used my CPAP, there was so much on my mind I couldn't sleep. I don't know what to do. I have changed this part of this post about ten times because of what I am writing. And that is bologna. This is my blog and I should be able to write what I want to--what I feel without being afraid of how it will sound. Pretty much has never stopped me before but this is a bit different.

I am so tired. I am sorry. I don't mean to complain. I love my family and am blessed to have them but I can't take all the noise and chaos around here. I need some peace and quiet. Desperately!

Olivia just got back home from her other grandmother's. She is laughing and playing with the other 2.

I am going to get a shower and go to bed shortly. I know that it is early, but I am exhausted. I need to sleep in the worst way. Have to work tomorrow. There is so much I need to do.

I just need a vacation I think. Somewhere far, far away from all the chaos.

I am sorry.

This stands as it is.

I do love y'all.
To be continued...........

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Memories from this time of year past

64 days until Halloween...

89 Days until Thanksgiving!

119 days until Christmas Day!
Just in case you need updating.......

Do you like this count down? Does it make you cringe? Actually it doesn't bother me. I do like to look at it because I like to decorate for the seasons from fall through Christmas. The day after Christmas, the tree comes down. I have been known to take it down on Christmas night. I have a friend who leaves her tree up a while after Christmas, so if I want to see one, I can go see hers;) It is always decorated so pretty anyway!

I am watching a movie about Kate Middleton and Prince William. It's not too bad. I really liked Princess Dianna. I watched her wedding to Prince Charles, and I got up around 3 am to watch her funeral. The fourteenth anniversary of her death will be in 4 days. It was a Saturday night, it was the Saturday before Labor Day. I remember well where I was and who I was with. It was back before Mr. Smith had his stroke. Every Labor Day weekend on Saturday night we had a weenie roast then a pot luck on Sunday. It was a family reunion for them and we always went along with the Spencers and the Cobbs as well as life long friends of Tommy and Jerry. It was Saturday night, we had finished our hot dogs and I had brought some peanut butter and chocolate fudge. We were cutting into that and the men were watching some sports event on TV, and came out and told us she had been in an accident and it was critical. A short time later, Norma and I were sitting off to the side talking and they came out and told us she had died. It was a sad night. Couldn't help but think about her boys. I believe they grew up to be decent young men for the most part. Rick never teased me about being upset over her death. Some people at work did. They just didn't understand. I guess I get too involved sometimes. They couldn't believe I actually got up that early to watch a funeral on TV. Couldn't help it. We always enjoyed spending time with the Smiths. Our family used to use the creek behind their house around the fourth of July every year. Four wheelers and a tractor and wagon were the only way besides on foot you can get to that creek! I have fond memories of most of that!

It has been a long day and I am tired.
24 Joshua 15 And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose you this day whom ye will serve : whether the gods your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you dwell : but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.
Y'all have a good evening and a blessed Sunday!
I love y'all!
To be continued.............

Friday, August 26, 2011


65 days until Halloween...

90 Days until Thanksgiving!

120 days until Christmas Day!
Just in case you need updating.......

I worked today and got home about the usual time. I do some thinking, praying and meditating when I can. I have someone on my heart, she has been there for several weeks now, since our revival closed. You don't have to know her name or need, but I would ask that you say a prayer for her! God knows who she is and He knows her need. Please remember my friend in your prayers!

I was thinking about how good the Lord is to us. I could thank Him every second of every minute of every day of every week of every year for the rest of my life and if I lived to be 100, I would still owe Him. I do not thank Him nearly enough for all He does for my family and me!

So Much To Thank Him For

1) When I look around and see all the good things He's done for me

I know I'm unworthy of them all

For His blessings He freely gives, I owe my life to Him

I've got so much to thank Him for


And I've got so much to thank Him for, so much to praise Him for,

You see, He has been so good to me

And when I think of what He's done, and where He's brought me from

I've got so much to thank Him for

2) And sometimes, while on this Way, I stop to kneel and say,

"Thank you" for all He's done for me

And when I reach sweet Heaven's shore only just let me kneel once more

I've got so much to thank Him for

Chorus-- 2x

And when I think of what He's done, and where He's brought me from

I've got so much to thank Him for

Bubba is feeling much better today. He still drools some, but not nearly as much as he did. He is such a sweet, loving child until you tell him no. Then he has his moments. I call them "Rick fits" haha. If you never saw a "Rick fit" you missed something. HAHAHA. He knew I said that about him, I used to tease him about it. It had been a long, long time since he had one.......

CPAP went very well last night. I thought I slept all night maybe waking only for a few seconds about 3am, went right back to sleep! I didn't get up at all! And a great thing happened. I was getting ready for work this morning and I actually had ankles! And tonight, though my ankle swelling is there, it is much, much less than in the past! I am excited! I think this CPAP is working for me! If someone tells you snore and or stop breathing at night, or you are so tired early in the morning and maybe your mouth is so dry when you wake or you wake gasping for breath...... maybe you should be checked for sleep apnea..........just saying! The home CPAP machines are much smaller than even ten years ago, they are quieter, and the masks are lighter. I have absolutely no trouble with my nasal mask! I may try the nasal pillows again some day....

Working tomorrow, I hope each of you has a great rest of the evening and a very blessed weekend.

I love y'all!
To be continued...........

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Just a few thoughts

66 days until Halloween...

91 Days until Thanksgiving!

121 days until Christmas Day!
Just in case you need updating.......

So, I had to work today. It was a good day. There were some things on my mind though. One of the things on my mind was a song Noots sung last night at prayer meeting. It is this song, these are words as close to how he sang it as I could find:

I Heard a Sweet Voice
I heard a sweet voice so tenderly calling
Saying arise be saved evermore
And I knew it must be the voice of my Savior
For I had not heard a voice like it before

I remember one night in an old fashioned meeting
I was praying to God to redeem my poor soul
When I heard the sweet voice of my lovin' Savior
And I started that night to make heaven my home

I'm glad that I heard the voice of my Savior
I know I'm redeemed by his wonderful grace
Someday when he calls I'll go up to Heaven
And then in that city I'll look on His face

I thought it was a beautiful song and so true, you know. His voice is so sweet and calming and reassuring. I could not have made the last 21 + months without Him! (and the support, love and prayers from my friends and family!)

CPAP is going well except early this morning (maybe about 3:30 am) my nose and sinuses were burning! It was like someone had put pepper spray in my machine! I know no one did, it just ran out of water! I will fill it up again in a few minutes and go to bed for the night. Gotta work Friday and Saturday too! I am blessed and grateful I have a job! There are so many people out there who do not have a job!

I think that each morning one month before Thanksgiving we should post something on our status on facebook stating what we are thankful for that day. I also thing we should try to not use the same post twice, though that may be a challenge! It will be for me! I did this last year and it really makes you think! Are you willing to try it? Maybe starting November first? I will remind you!

I think this is all for tonight. I hope y'all have a great rest of the evening and a peaceful night's sleep and wake in the morning to a beautiful day!

I love y'all!
To be continued.............

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Bubba feels better already

Bubba is feeling so much better. The blisters on his little feet are healing, his nose isn't quite as runny, and he is not drooling quite as much. I am glad he is better.

Well, can you say HOT? It has gotten hot and humid again. I wish fall weather would come stay longer! It will be here soon. I filled 3 hummingbird feeders yesterday, they are going crazy!

I heard there was another earth quake today, in Puerto Rico. I don't know if it's true or not, but.....

Signs of the time are all around us. Please if you have lost loved ones, help them get in! Before it is too late......

I think this will be a short post tonight. I am tired and just got a call......IAPB call tomorrow and guess what! They are putting in one right now. I know they help people, but the past zillion times I have had call, I have had to go in. So, it is about bedtime for me.

I love y'all.
To be continued..............

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

123 Days

123 days until Christmas Day. That leaves 122 shopping days, and you know, at this hour just go ahead and subtract one.......just saying.........

Without getting into details, yesterday evening and again this morning, my decision to withdraw my name from the CCU manager job was the right one! There is no way in the world I want to deal with some things!

That is off my mind now! It has been an OK day today, did a lot of thinking about things today, been kind of down the past few days I think. I believe it is because of the time of year that is just a few weeks away. Rick always loved the fall. He had a fall garden and we had cabbage until Thanksgiving most years, and a couple of times we had it until Christmas. I was thinking about how I am going to have to buy the corn stalks again, which is not a big deal, they are certainly cheap enough. Maybe next year, I will go ahead and plant some corn just to have the stalks. Maybe not, I can just buy it! Mammoth Cave Transplants and Creekside Nursery both sell the stalks.

I went to Berry Vine Primitives on Saturday afternoon, gotta go back there again in a couple of weeks, it was great! I bought a pumpkin decoration and saw some very cute stuff!

Perry's foot with blister-like places from this virus

Poor Bubba! He has a virus from the "enterovirus" family of viruses. It is called Hand Foot and Mouth disease, it is contagious between children and presents with a sore throat, drooling, and spots on the face, hands and soles of the feet. The Coxsackie virus is the usual cause. This hand foot mouth thing does not usually affect adults, but the coxsackie virus does. I have had it several times. When Valarie was about two, I got a viral pericarditis (inflammation of the sack around the heart) and it is most usually caused by the coxsackie virus. It was also present in my gall bladder when it was removed. The surgeon said he had never seen that before and he didn't know why the pathologist even found it, but he did. When Nick was about 2, I had that pericarditis again. Hope never to have it again! Ever! It didn't hurt, really but from the inflammation, I could "feel" my heart beating and had a weird feeling. Didn't like it too much!

Did you hear about the earthquakes? WOW! Do you wonder about the end days? I do!
Matthew 24
Verse 6, 7, 8

And ye shall hear of wars and rumors of wars: see that ye not be troubled: for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet.
For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, and pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places.
All these are the beginning of sorrows.
Can't help but think about that scripture......

I love y'all!
To be continued.............

Monday, August 22, 2011

ACLS Class! Work! More Class!

My Bubba

So today I had ACLS class this morning. I went to work, my usual morning routine, then went to class. It was much different than expected! There were actually 3 others that I knew in the class! That is very unusual for me! I was glad to see them! I was expecting the class to be on the computer and I was very worried for one reason I had never done the renewal on the computer, second, I am not good with computers, third, I was afraid it would take me all day. So I got in there, class "schedule" says it will take until 1pm. Someone is working on stepdown for me until I get there. So, I think OK. I was hoping for much sooner but.......So Sherry comes in and starts the class. Then before we know it, it is 10am and we are ready to test. I was the third done with the written part. As soon as the fourth was done, we went into another room and "practiced" our skills. When the four of us had "practiced" our skills she told us we were done and "get out of there!" It was easy as pie and I was back to work before noon. Much better than one pm.

By the way for you non-medical friends, ACLS stands for Advanced Cardiac Life Support. We also have a class "BLS" which is Basic Life Support aka CPR. Both are renewed every 2 years. I am also an ACLS instructor, I renewed it today too.........

I had a few people ask me about removing my name from the list for the manager. I just don't feel it is right for me at this time. I did pray about it more than once. It just isn't right for me right now. I don't know if I will stay in CCU either. I do need something to get me off weekends so much, but leaving CCU may be wrong. Time will tell. We will see!

I want to say congratulations to my friend Libby. She has a new grandson. He is a handsome little fellow. She is on cloud 9.

I hope each of you has a great, blessed week.

John 3:16

King James Version (KJV)

16For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

I love y'all!
To be continued................

Sunday, August 21, 2011

And so another week begins

This is Nick and Janna

This is all Nana and Papaw James' grandchildren except Joshua Charles Cutright, who lives in Florida and could not be there. This was taken Christmas Day 2009 Rick's last Christmas. From Left: Valarie Kristen Sanders, Heather Nicole James-Miller, Jessie Owen James, Jacob James, Brittany Leigh James, Nicholas Ryan Sanders & Jeffrey Ryan James. There are also great-grandchildren: Jonas Ian Miller, Jr; October Rose Suttle, Perry Dale Suttle, Jr. Olivia Rhea Sullivan; Thomas James & Nolan James and Adriana Cutright.

I have a class tomorrow, I didn't realize when I signed up for it that it may take all day and that I was working tomorrow. I had to call the covering manager and the IABP call RN will come in and cover until I get out of class. I have never re-certified for ACLS this way, I hope it doesn't take forever!

We had church today. Last night I told you that a good man had been called to replace our pastor whose time was up. Maybe some day he will return to us. The new man was there today, he is still sorting it all out and will let us know. It was a very good service today. I do hope he takes us. We did not have any preaching today at all, just testimony and a lost person bowed. She did not make it today, but the power was there. Came home after church and we fixed a little dinner. Nick brought Janna here after church at her church. We fixed ribs on the grill. Next time we will adjust how we fix them but they did taste good. I made baked beans and we mashed some potatoes. Not bad.

I have been studying for my class tomorrow. I have to pass it, I believe I will, but it is on the computer, I have never taken it that way before so I hope it goes well! Wish me luck! I had some worries about a friend that have been taken care of over the weekend! YAY! I won't say too much more than that. I will say God is good!

Y'all have a blessed day tomorrow and week ahead!

I love y'all!
To be continued...............

Saturday, August 20, 2011

I still ♥ CPAP

It has been over a week now, I have used my CPAP every night. A couple of nights I took it off some time during the night, but for the majority of the time I have kept it on. I feel more rested when I use it. This morning though I woke with a terrible headache, sinus headache I think. It took a while for it to go away. I am sleeping better though.

Tonight we had our pastor election. One good man leaving, another good man coming in. I didn't vote. I didn't feel a strong enough impression to vote.....just like last year. I had a slight impression as service started tonight, and that was the man that was called. The deacons will contact him tonight and he will say yes or no. I believe he will say yes. We will see. Usually, when someone is called it is right.

I have been kinda down today. I didn't get out until mid afternoon. I just feel kinda blah today. I did go up to Berry Vine Primitives this afternoon. I bought a pumpkin sign and some room spray. I love that store and they have some fall decorating stuff out. I think Toe Joe could make most of it! It is so cute though! I just mostly wanted to get out and be by myself. I ate supper at Zaxby's at Glasgow, and got a new electric cord for my laptop, my old cord was fractured or something. It wouldn't stay connected even when plugged in if that makes sense. The battery went out long ago, it has to stay plugged in to be used. And I would much rather use my laptop than my desk top. That was Rick's. He sat there for hours looking at Asset Auctions to find junk he could buy. He loved that site. He would also email some of his friends, at least he would read theirs and call me in to help him reply. He never did get the hang of replying to an email but he could work that Asset Auction site!

I miss him.

I miss Jennifer too.

126 days until Christmas Day. (Actually in 1 1/2 hours from now it will be 125 days....)

I love y'all!

To be continued...............

Friday, August 19, 2011


I can not believe it is 127 days until Christmas Day! It is passing so quickly! I am not even ready to start thinking about it! And it is only 72 days until Halloween! My dad's birthday is that day as well! Life is quickly passing. I want to enjoy the ride! Do we? Really? Think about it! We work, work, work, worry, worry, worry. Is there anything we can do about certain things? I need to take each day as it comes and not worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow may never happen. It might, but if I trust in the One above, then why should I worry?

When I moved out on my own in 1978, my room mate was named Deborah. She was from New York, she had performed with a Christian music group whose name escapes me, but I digress. Deborah had some contemporary Christian music albums, I had a stereo, this song is beautiful. I am posting the words here, and I will post the song on facebook shortly. This song says a lot. A lot of people I know don't care for this type of music, but I find it comforting in some ways. Here are the lyrics:

Mansion Builder
by Second Chapter of Acts
I've been told that there are those
Who will learn how to fly
And I've been told that there are those
Who will never die
And I've been told that there are stars
That will never lose their shine
And that there is a Morning Star
Who knows my mind

So why should I worry?
Why should I fret?
'Cause I've got a Mansion Builder
Who ain't through with me yet

And I've been told that there's a
Crystal lake in the sky
And every tear from my eyes
Is saved when I cry
And I've been told there'll come a time
When the sun will cease to shine
And that there is a Morning Star
Who knows my mind


Deborah had a lot of albums, and I got used to a lot of the songs. My first introduction to Amy Grant was through Deb. I don't like some of Amy's songs, but some I do. She is very talented and does not really get the credit she deserves.

If you would like to hear more songs by the above group, you can find them on You Tube.

King James Version (KJV) This is a partial post of the actual second chapter of the book of Acts in the Holy Bible. I just read it before I posted it, and you might want to look it up! Verse 20 scared the life out of me so to speak 41 years ago and I found my Lord on my knees in a little place called Stockholm on a Saturday night a long time ago. I had no idea where that was in the Bible until tonight. Everything happens for a reason!

Acts 2

1And when the day of Pentecost was fully come, they were all with one accord in one place.

2And suddenly there came a sound from heaven as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled all the house where they were sitting.

3And there appeared unto them cloven tongues like as of fire, and it sat upon each of them.

4And they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.

5And there were dwelling at Jerusalem Jews, devout men, out of every nation under heaven.

6Now when this was noised abroad, the multitude came together, and were confounded, because that every man heard them speak in his own language.

7And they were all amazed and marvelled, saying one to another, Behold, are not all these which speak Galilaeans?

8And how hear we every man in our own tongue, wherein we were born?

9Parthians, and Medes, and Elamites, and the dwellers in Mesopotamia, and in Judaea, and Cappadocia, in Pontus, and Asia,

10Phrygia, and Pamphylia, in Egypt, and in the parts of Libya about Cyrene, and strangers of Rome, Jews and proselytes,

11Cretes and Arabians, we do hear them speak in our tongues the wonderful works of God.

12And they were all amazed, and were in doubt, saying one to another, What meaneth this?

13Others mocking said, These men are full of new wine.

14But Peter, standing up with the eleven, lifted up his voice, and said unto them, Ye men of Judaea, and all ye that dwell at Jerusalem, be this known unto you, and hearken to my words:

15For these are not drunken, as ye suppose, seeing it is but the third hour of the day.

16But this is that which was spoken by the prophet Joel;

17And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams:

18And on my servants and on my handmaidens I will pour out in those days of my Spirit; and they shall prophesy:

19And I will shew wonders in heaven above, and signs in the earth beneath; blood, and fire, and vapour of smoke:

20The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before the great and notable day of the Lord come:

21And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved.

I know this is a long post tonight but I had a lot to say with a couple of different ways to say it! I may be poor, but I can pay attention!

I love y'all!

To be continued.............

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Rain, Storms, Internet!

"the new one"

Well, when I got home I found out the internet was down. I unplugged the modem from the power, waited 2 minutes.......plugged it back in, notta! Well, I did it again, notta, so I called Windstream. The guy who answered was very helpful, he got us up and running again, couldn't run the thing from the laptop though, had to get on the desktop, which by the way they fixed my virus problem with it yesterday. 12.99! That would have been a couple hundred if the Geek squad fixed it. Go Windstream!

Digital TV does not work anymore. Before digital, I had 4, 5, 13, 24, 30, 40 and 53 with sometimes 27 and 17 and 32. Now I have absolutely nothing. Can't get WBKO, WKYU, or the CBC/NBC stations. And forget Nashville stations! I don't know whose bright idea digital TV was for us country folks, but they need to move to the country and try.

I am tired, gonna try to sleep. It has been a long day, my CPAP is calling my name, I changed my water, rinsed everything I was supposed to, I think and added my pollen filter. No stuffiness tonight, no runny nose tonight, so maybe it will be fine! Y'all shoulda seen me last night, maybe sometime I will post a picture, but I will leave it to your imagination. Picture this. I am in bed, lights out (TV on of course), CPAP on, and my glasses sort of propped onto my mask so I can see how to post something about being blind and stuffed up because of ragweed and golden rods. It was pretty hideous!

My dear son brought me chocolate and a coke zero! YAY Nick. Perfect end to a stressful day! Remember everything I usually say when I am ending.

I love y'all!
To be continued............

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Work tomorrow

Tomorrow I go back to work for two days. Yesterday, I had to go in for a class. I told a couple of people who asked if I had applied for Sally's job yet that I had decided to remove my name from the list. They were upset at me. I told them I had been thinking more about it and I decided it is not for me at this time. I do hope they will understand. I just don't want the responsibility again. I had that job once, and I loved it, but I just don't want to be there every day, responsible for everything that happens in the unit. And I don't want to have to deal with the politics that go along with it. I will just stay where I am, care for my patients, and leave work there. I believe someone will come along who will take good care of us.

Except for the cyclone that passed through my house today, it has been a good day. The babies have had fun today. They had a great time playing and chasing each other. I will be glad though to get my house back and babies just for visits! Tonight before she went to bed, Tobi crawled up in my lap, I held her like when she was little, and she said I loves you gamma! Melted my heart!

The CPAP is mostly going well, woke up without it this morning though, around 4am. Don't know how that happened. Didn't go back to sleep and I have been a bit sleepy today. I have had more energy the past few days, but the swelling in my lower legs is worse yesterday and today. I don't think I have been eating any more salt than normal.

I think this is all for tonight. Y'all have a great night! Also, please remember our church when you pray, we call a new pastor on Saturday night. Also, please remember Ray Cobb's family, Ray passed away yesterday. He will be missed.

I love y'all!
To be continued..............

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Middle of August with Fall Like Temps!

This stuff is ragweed! I mowed through it this past Thursday! I shoulda known better. Eyes have been puffy since!

This stuff is goldenrod! This is the KY state flower! I really don't like it! It makes my eyes water and my nose run and get stuffy and I am afraid it won't let me use my CPAP when my nose is closed off from it! And it is in full bloom beside my driveway!

Well, today I decided to write to Bret Guthrie. He is our Congressman. I wrote a fairly long email to him regarding our speed limit issue on 743. I hope he helps us. I have encouraged my friends and neighbors to email him too, and a few have already! His inbox will have at least 3 or 4 emails to start his day tomorrow. I hope everyone in our area writes to him and calls KDOT! They had a KDOT car in the area today, he was radaring and counting folks as they passed. I hope it does some good!

I also did not change my mind about withdrawing my name from the manager job. I decided I just don't want that right now. There will be something come along that I do want, but that is not for me at this time. I can't see me going to class at WKU with all those kids at 52 years old. Some of it is online, but some I would need classroom to be able to understand. I am sure of that because I have tried online before.

It is a nice night outside, the moon is waning from full. The breeze is just cool enough. Too bad the mosquitoes have to bite! I have been sitting out there trying to meditate about our upcoming pastor election. I just don't know. I have a slight impression, just like last year, and last year I felt it was just too light. That person is who came in. I will continue to meditate and pray about it, and if it gets stronger, I will go that way, and if it does not, I will keep my seat just like last year.

I love y'all!
To be continued............

Monday, August 15, 2011

131 days until Christmas

Fall is quickly approaching. The trees are losing their color, some of the walnut trees are turning yellow. Watching Walton's reruns today. One of the episodes was about Pearl Harbor, and Mary Ellen's husband missing

Fall decorating will be here before we know it! I am looking forward to putting up the fodder, straw bales and pumpkins. I love to decorate for fall. One of my nieces mentioned putting out her Halloween decorations already. I think I will wait for a few more weeks, 4 or so anyway. It is still summer, after all. Speaking of summer, the weather has been so fall-like the past few days, it has been pleasant to sit on the porch and watch the birds and just enjoy being outside. After that it will be time for Christmas decorating! I love that time of year as well!

I have been having second thoughts this afternoon about the job prospect. I am thinking there is so much to it that I don't really want to have to deal with. I have to think about the fact that was the job I left to come back here to work. I wanted to get back to taking care of patients. I think that is what I would rather do. Unless something happens to change my mind tonight, tomorrow I am going to call HR and withdraw my job interest form. It is not that I can't do the job, it is what has to be done that I just would rather stay at the bedside. I will support whoever comes in, but I think I don't want it. I really don't want to go back to school either. I can not see fighting to park and going to class at 52 years old. I am most likely older than most of the teachers! I do want to get away from weekends and holidays, I have been working every other Christmas for 33 years. Whatever is meant to be will happen I suppose. I don't know what to do.

CPAP is going well!

This is all for tonight!
Goodnight y'all!
I love y'all!
To be continued...........

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Night 4 coming up! I still ♥ CPAP!

Last night was the best night yet for the CPAP! I was asleep fairly quickly, woke around 4am and felt soooo rested! I slept soundly (at least I felt like I did) for about 6 or 6.5 hours. That is the most consecutive hours of sleep that I have had in years! I got up, made coffee and put my potato salad together for work, then I laid down again until almost 6 with the machine. I didn't sleep, but I did rest/maybe dozed! I am so excited! It seems to be helping! My ankles are still swelling a little, but not nearly as much as they were before. And the palpitations are much less!

No word yet on the job situation. I don't know if I will get it or not, if I don't it will be OK! I did apply on Friday, I am wondering if it will be the right thing. If it is meant to be it will happen.

This road/speed limit thing going on over on highway 743 is getting on my nerves a bit! I am thinking my next step will be to write to the state senator for the area and the state representative. Also, I might write to the US Senator or representative. I just don't understand how one man, a police officer, can get away with getting this changed. When I called the KY Department of Transportation in Bowling Green, I was told the amount of fatal accidents in the area and increase in population in the are were the reason for the change. When I confronted him with the facts, he did not deny that the BGPD officer got it changed. When I challenged this with another KDOT person, I did get their attention and they are going to do a "speed study" what ever that is. She said unfortunately, it is not likely it will be changed again. I am sorry, I don't understand why it can't go back to 55. I could live with 50 0r maybe 45, but that is unrealistic too. This is the country. I say if the policeman wants to live where the speed limit is 35 on a rural road, he just needs to give up and move back to town to a subdivision. Period! I will continue to try to get it changed until I exhaust every avenue open to us. Then I will give up and go 35 through there. I have not complained to his superiors, I don't know if I am going to do that or not, but you never know. If he yells at me the way I know he has to a few of my friends, I am libel to call them. He just needs to either grow up or move. Obviously, he is not from around here! This is country, not town or city! Y'all call KDOT! 746-7898 and complain!!! We need all the complaints that we can get!

Enough of that soap box!

It is a beautiful night outside with a beautiful full moon, partly cloudy, the sunset was very colorful! Y'all have a great night!

Two days ago marked the 27th anniversary of the birth and death of my Niece Miss Jessica Lynn James. She was a precious little girl who was so tiny. She was not able to survive. She was perfectly formed, she looked like the rest of our babies. Tiny little nose, high forehead, dark hair, her features were so dainty! We never got to know her, but we did (and still do) love her! One day little Jessica we will spend eternity with you!

Remember your friends, neighbors and family in your prayers, even the policeman on 743! I know I need your prayers!

I love y'all!
To be continued...........

Saturday, August 13, 2011


I am about to go for day 3 of CPAP. Last night was a bit more difficult to sleep with it. I don't know why, my seal was great from the beginning with no adjustment, I was even able to lie on my right side without a leak. I just had trouble falling asleep. Woke again at 2am, took off the mask and fell asleep without putting it back on. I woke several more times, and knew I needed to put it back on, just fell asleep before I could reach for it. I know this is going to work! I know it is! In those few hours I did sleep with it, I must have slept fairly well because I had good energy this morning and it lasted through the work day. So, I feel like it is helping. I don't remember having as many heart palpitations today, and though my ankles are a bit more swollen than yesterday, they are much better than they have been over the past several months. I am still pleased with it, and when I go to bed by 9pm tonight, I plan to keep it on all night.

I won't remind you how many days until Christmas tonight!

While I did come home to a sink of dirty dishes tonight, Val did manage to make a pretty good supper. I was pleased. I do, however, have to watch Aladdin cartoon tonight. It's cute but I am too old for this. I am getting sleepy, I will close for now. Remember your friends, neighbors, relatives in prayer! I know I need your prayers, and I will remember y'all!

I love y'all!
To be continued................

Friday, August 12, 2011


Last night I slept better than I have in years! I love my CPAP machine! YAY! I encourage anyone who even suspects you have sleep apnea to go see your Dr. and get checked if it is necessary! You would not believe how much more energy I had today! YAY!!!!!! If you snore, wake up with a very dry throat, headache or someone tells you that you stop breathing in your sleep, you may need to be checked. It will be worth it! I worked today and guess what? My ankles are closer to normal after a 12 hour shift than they have been in years! After one night! Can you tell I am excited?

Another reason I am excited Val got a job! YAY ME! It means soon she will be out of my house!

And just so you know 134 days until Christmas day! Has anyone started Christmas shopping yet?

This is a short post today. I am going to bed! TV is set and I hope I don't make it to Blue Bloods in just under one half hour! Goodnight my friends. I love y'all!

Pray for your friends and neighbors, I know I can use it!

I love y'all!
To be continued.................

Thursday, August 11, 2011

A good day!

It has been a great day! I picked up my CPAP today, can't wait until bedtime so I can use it! It does make watching TV and hearing much a bit difficult. But I will learn to deal with it, it is going to make life so much better!

We found, washed and put out several more hummingbird feeders. I love those tiny creatures! They are so cute! And they are a bit aggressive towards each other, males and females. The females challenge each other and sometimes challenge the males, while the male still rules. Sometimes I want to run him off, but if I do there would be another male step up to the role, so I will just let them be. Nick worked on the yard yesterday, it looks great! The babies tore up most of my solar lights, so I took all of them down. I miss them. When they get a home of their own, I will get some more.

Bubba has had a good day today. Tobi is at mammaw's, Livvy is with her papaw Sullivan. Bubba is here with us. He has played hard all day!

I work tomorrow, and all weekend. The potential job is still not posted, I plan to apply for it when it is posted. I don't know if I will get it, but I intend to try! If it is not that job, something else will come up so that I can get weekends off. I did apply for an employee health job, I haven't heard anything from it.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!
I love y'all!
To be continued..............

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

From "The Next Chapter" which I am deleting and combining with Rick and Myra

Posted Sunday 8/7 in The Next Chapter, I am combining the two blogs and will delete The Next Chapter shortly

Starting a new chapter, maybe?

So today I was thinking about life in general. I do that sometimes. I get so deep in thought that I don't think about anything else, wondering about different things that no one has the answer to. I think that I need to try to move on with living and get out of the rut I have been in. I know that part of me will never be the same. I know that no matter what I do, it will not change. And that's ok! There is no shame in that at all. The thing I need to focus on is life goes on. It always has and it always will until that day when the great trumpet sounds and time ends. No one on this earth nor in Heaven knows when that day will come. Rick would not want me to sit around all day every day and mope for him. He told me to move on. I don't think he realized how difficult that would be! I still love him, I still have his cell phone on, I still call it often to hear his voice.

So I have purposed in my heart to move forward with my life. I don't know what that means really. But the one thing I know is he smiled when I said it! How does one really move on after that kind of loss? I won't forget him, I can't forget him! We spent way too many years together for that!

I think what I have to do is be me. I think I have been, it's just I have to do things I want to do, and not think so much about what we would have done.

And what that will mean will develop as I go. It was Rick and Myra much longer than it was just Myra.

I intend to continue to post as I need to in RickandMyra. And I will post in the recipe blog as well. This will be the place for general posting. And we will go from there!

I love y'all!
To be continued...........

Monday August 8

Difficulty deciding which place this goes!

138 days until Christmas Day.............

You know, I have been praying about my job lately. I would love to have weekends off and more holidays with my family and to be able to go to church anytime it goes on. So, I get to work today and my boss (and dear friend whom I have known 33 years) tells us she is moving on to another job offering. She looks like the weight of the world has been lifted off her shoulders. I had not been there an hour when the first person asked me if I would apply for her job. I told her no thank you. She said are you sure? I had to go off the unit for a while with my patient. Another nurse came to relieve me. I asked her if she was going to apply for the job, she said no, but you should. When we came back from the tests, 3 people stopped me and asked me if I was going to apply. I said I had not thought that much about it, but people were asking me. Night shift came in and each one asked me the same question. Now I am thinking about it. But if you remember in an earlier post in the RickandMyra Blog, I said "been there, got the tee shirt and put it in a yard sale"--and the last thing Sally asked me before she left for the night was, do you want my job?

Now I am wondering is God trying to tell me something? Sometimes He opens doors for us when we ask and we don't see them. So now with tears in my eyes, I have to ask Him, is this what I need to do? I am so unsure right now. I have been there, not at this facility, but I have done this before. I missed my patients, that is how I wound up back in Bowling Green to work. 1. The job is not even posted. 2. Sally is my friend. 3. She is leaving under her wishes. 4. I love CCU. 5. She asked me if I wanted to apply. 6. I did not come back to BG to manage a unit. 7. I do not have a BSN degree. 8. 52 is awfully old to return to school to get that degree. 9. The hospital has tuition reimbursement. 10. I don't know if Betsy (whom I also have known 33 years) would even consider me for the job.

I have been praying about something different to do...........

What to think?


I love y'all!
To be continued.....................

Tuesday August 9

Still thinking

Well, I have been thinking all day about what to do about the new opening in CCU. I have been praying for an answer all day, and it came to me that it was touched on on Sunday night at church. Really. They read scriptures something like the one below. I did ask, have been asking for several months and I was waiting for an answer. This may not be it, and if I don't apply, I will never know will I? If it is meant to be, then it will happen. I still have a bit of thinking to do, but I believe it will be ok. It will work out the way it is supposed to. I believe that. So, if the job is posted, I will apply. If it is meant to be, it will happen! If it is not, then something will come along! I have faith! I don't know if this is my answer, but we'll find out. Together.

I was sitting on the front porch watching the hummingbirds. I was also looking out over the field seeing the last of the sunlight for the day touching the trees. I noticed the color is changing, they are still green, but there is a bit of dullness there now. And the sun sets a little earlier every day or two and rises a little later every day or two now. It was still warm out there, but there was a slight breeze, and in the breeze, there was just a hint of a chill. Yes, it is still summer, but fall is only about six or seven weeks away! Those hummingbirds were so mean to each other. Little bossy was watching the feeder and the two plants I have that have trumpet flowers for them. He was also watching the butterfly bush, they love it too. Kept him busy. By dark there were a half dozen or so out there trying to sneak in. I love those birds.

I love y'all!
To be continued...............

Matthew 7: 7-8

7Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:

8For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

And the last post earlier today

CPAP tomorrow!

Went to get the results of the sleep apnea tests. I was there almost 2 hours! The first test I only had like 5 minutes of REM sleep and zero deep sleep. With the second test, there were 5 episodes of REM sleep and lots of deep sleep! Now, hopefully after tomorrow, I will get much more sleep like with the second test. I will use the machine and go back with the memory card in 6 weeks and they will tell me if it needs adjustment. Hopefully, it wont! YAY!

I got home to 2 little wild Indians! They have been running around like crazy! They have gone down for naps now! There is just no breaks of peace and quiet around here! I love my grandchildren, but they should not live with me all the time! Maybe someday they will have their own home! My goodness! There is always something going on with 2 toddlers and a baby!

This morning I was looking over facebook, came across a post of a supposed friend who had posted something about a mutual friend. The comments there really hurt my feelings and I am not involved! Then I found out the comments were altered before they were posted! How cruel to make yourself look good and make someone else look like a pitiful whiney person! And that person who may or may not read my post addressing the manner without calling names will not even believe it is directed at them. What a shame and how arrogant! Why can't people just treat each other the way they would want to be treated. How sad to treat people that way and act like you are their friend to their face. And if that person sees it on facebook, how hurt will they be? I don't always look back at earlier posts, but I know if I found something like that from one of my friends, I would be so hurt. I am sure not everyone on my friends list is an actual friend, but what I understand is these two were supposed to be good friends. How interesting. Time to clean up friends lists I think! And no, I will not mention names or female or male here. I will never confront that person about it. But I know. Just like many other things and comments from people who are supposed to be my friend. I remember. I know. I know from personal experience how that hurts people.
Proverbs 17:9

9He that covereth a transgression seeketh love; but he that repeateth a matter separateth very friends.

I love y'all!
To be continued...............

I gave it a shot

And though this blog is "RickandMyra" and now it is just "Myra" and I started a new blog called the next chapter, I think I will put it aside and continue here with this blog. The other was read well, but it is difficult sometimes to decide which place to put something. So, if I am posting something that pertains to Rick and me, then I will warn you when I "share" that there may be tears if you read it. How's that? I think I will just post here and the recipe blog when I find something I want to post on there. Yes, I think that is that. I don't think I can delete it, but it will just be there.

Did you know there are 136 days until Christmas?

If you have been reading my other blog, you know there is a job opening in my unit. I have been praying for a job that would let me be free to attend church regularly. This job opened up. I am not saying that God is answering my prayer by having Sally move on to Scottsville by any means. What I am saying is I have been praying and here's an opportunity. I think I have to act on it. And as soon as it posts available, I will apply. I have no idea if I will get it or not, but I do know I won't get it if I don't ask for it. I do have some manager experience. I do have former co-workers/employees willing to write letters for me, they have seen some of my posts. And many people in CCU have asked me to apply. So I am going to apply. As in every job there will be some people who will never be pleased, some you couldn't please if you gave them one million dollars, they'd want two. That is what my mom used to say! I don't know if I will have the opportunity to please anyone or not. I do know I am going to try to find something that will let me be able to go to church. If not this, then something will come along. I am sure of that!

And the best news is!!!! I get my CPAP machine tomorrow! Tomorrow night I should get good sleep!!! I can't wait! So, I want to leave you with a thought:
If you can't say something good about someone, don't say anything (unless its the "man" who caused the speed limit to be dropped to 35 mph on an open country road. I say if he wants it that low, he needs to move back to a subdivision in town!) Call the KDOT people and complain! If we complain loud enough, maybe we can make a change happen!

I love y'all!
To be continued...............

Monday, August 8, 2011

I started a different blog

I have started a new blog. It is called The Next Chapter. I am not too sure how much writing in this one I will be doing, I think it depends on the topic for the day. I am not going to close this blog, it holds so many memories. It holds healing for myself and some of my sisters in law, I think. And if it has helped anyone else, then I am even more blessed. All I want to do is help someone somehow!

I do ask you to remember in prayer the sick, the folks who have lost loved ones, the folks who have loved ones in critical condition......

Please remember our church family as we get ready to elect a new pastor in less than 2 weeks. And our neighbor church in a month when they have been charged to do the same thing!

I want to remind you that just because I have another blog does not mean I have changed the way I feel about Rick. I just will reserve this blog for posts relating to the grief and things going on around those feelings and the new blog will be devoted to new stuff, everyday stuff. I don't know if I will keep it, I just wanted to change it up a little-to grow and evolve......

And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose ye this day whom ye will serve...but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord. (Joshua 24:15)

I love y'all!
To be continued...........

Saturday, August 6, 2011

A great Saturday!

I love hummingbirds, everyday that I see one is a good day!!

140 days until Christmas Day!

I didn't sleep too well last night, still awake at 1:30 this morning, that is the last thing I remember, up to the bathroom at 4am, back to sleep and awake for good at 6:30 am with 2 babies climbing into Gamma's bed. They were so sweet! I was just so sleepy! Val made pancakes for breakfast. I ate them, they were pretty good. Next thing I went to Bowling Green around 11am and before I got where I was going, I had another of those episodes just like the last time I ate pancakes, arms and legs so weak I could barely drive, trembling, very clammy, my clothes and hair were wet from the sweating, then I looked in the mirror, face very pale with a pale "ring" around my mouth. I pulled into McDonald's drive through and got a frozen strawberry lemonade, I thought with all the sugar that has to have in it surely I would feel better quickly. I pulled over and drank that and after 15 minutes I was still very trembly. I decided to go into Riley's bakery and got a chicken salad sandwich. That took another 10 minutes to make me feel better. Why does this not happen to me when I can have my blood sugar checked? I am fine now.

While I was driving to town, I was thinking about all the sadness in the community over the past few weeks. The young man Jacob Irwin, a friend at work's son and nephew, a friend at work's cousin, another friend at work's father-in-law, a high school friend, a mother/daughter co-worker's mother/grandmother, some died from cancer, some from accidents, some other reasons, and the one thing that is common is they are all feeling loss and grief. And they all have one thing in common, a loving God to comfort them. There is more sickness out there. We never know when the next time we said bye to someone will be their last. remember to tell them how you feel! And remember your friends, neighbors, relatives, everyone in prayer!
1 Corinthians 13
1Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal.

2And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing.

3And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing.

4Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

5Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;

6Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;

7Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

8Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away.

9For we know in part, and we prophesy in part.

10But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.

11When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

12For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known.

13And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity.

You know, this has nothing to do with what I was writing, but it is what I needed to post. I do love this scripture....but as I re-read it, it is perfect. As it should be!

I love y'all!
To be continued.............

Friday, August 5, 2011

The weekend is mine!

I am so very happy that the weekend is finally here! I am off for 2 whole days! YAY!!!! Do you think I am happy about it? Well, I am! We have church Sunday night. I am looking forward to it!

I don't know what I did to this blog thing, but I do not like the way it posts now! I want to go back to the old way! It is difficult to move from one paragraph to the next.

YAY!! I figured it out! I had clicked an updated thingy and unclicked it and now I can speed type to my hearts content!!

Y'all didn't need to know about that did you. LOL!

I was checking the blog stats before I started writing, and I am in awe! I feel blessed and honored that 5022 times this blog has been read since I started writing June 1, 2010. If you are new to it, then I will tell you that the original intent of this blog was a place to write my feelings to help me deal with the death of my husband (hence the title Rick and Myra) then a friend at work who read it said she wanted to read how our story began, so I wrote that, and now I still write about my feelings around his illness and death, but I also write about my feelings in general. I have not even considered changing the name, because although he is gone, he will forever be part of me. I married him until death us do part, and tho we are now parted by death, he still is in my heart and will be for a long, long time.

So today I read something a dear friend posted on my wall:
TRUE FRIENDS are ALWAYS there for each other, thru thick and thin, work and play, laughter and tears!!!!! You don't have to see each other or talk to each other every day because you know all you have to do is call and they will be there!!
And it is so true with her and several more friends....we can go for weeks without seeing each other or calling or sometimes even months and the next time we see each other it is like no time has passed. They know all they have to do is let me know and I am there, and I know all I have to do is let them know and they are there for me too! I can think of nothing sweeter!

I would ask again for your prayers for my friends having struggles right now. I will remember them and y'all as well! We should remember each other in our prayers.
James 5:16
“Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.”
I know I need the prayers of those I love and I try to remember those I love in my prayers. Think that is all for tonight, I hope y'all have a great weekend!

I love y'all!
To be continued..............

Thursday, August 4, 2011

So much has changed in the world!

142 days until Christmas Day!

So much has changed in the world since my last post. Yesterday afternoon, late, I found out a friend of mine lost her son and nephew in a terrible one car crash yesterday morning. She was at work, had heard about the accident, had tried to call her son. Of course, he could not answer. I can not imagine the loss of a child~~no matter how old!  Having lost 4 pregnancies, I know that pain, but to love a child for x number of years then lose him or her to a tragedy........please remember that family in your prayers! Please!

Also, yesterday I learned a family member had a problem that he is dealing with. I believe by the grace of God, he will be able to deal with his problem and overcome it! He is a strong, good man who realized there was something wrong and he needed to work on it. He has started his journey in an open honest manner, and I believe he will succeed. I will remember him in my prayers, and I ask you to as well! There is no need to mention names here, God knows all things! This is not a post for gossip! This is a place to vent feelings and ask my friends for help! I am asking! We all have problems, we all need help sometimes! It is not up to us to judge anyone over anything.......
           Matthew 7
 1Judge not, that ye be not judged.
 2For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.
 3And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother's eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?
 4Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye?
 5Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother's eye.
 6Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.
 7Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:
 8For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened           

On another note, the pump was removed and I was able to come home early, but only because we had moved out a few patients.....yay me!

Blogger has changed some things.....I don't like this at all! It is much harder to write! I might get used to it! I hope so, I enjoyed this, but when I need to make a new paragraph, it does not cooperate!

I think this is all for tonight!

I love y'all!
To be continued...........

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Dreams sometimes seem so real!

143 days until Christmas Day in case you were wondering..........

Last night/early this morning I had a dream, which is a rare circumstance these days. I woke thinking about it, glad in one way I had a dream because it means you are really asleep when you dream, also sad in a way because of the dream that it was, and glad in another way because of the dream it was, it was so real. I could smell his cologne, feel his arms around me. I dreamed Rick and I were driving "through the hollar" between here and Brownsville. We were close to Brownsville, around Oak Grove, and coming towards home. We were talking about running out of gas for some reason. We were in the old red Buick we used to have. I did get to tell him I love him before I woke. It seemed so real at the time. Maybe in some way it was God's way of letting me know everything would be ok? I know he is ok. He isn't hurting anymore. He isn't struggling for each breath. :) I guess that doesn't change the fact that I miss him so much still, just like yesterday and the day before that too......and month before that, you get the idea. But then again, I would not have him back just to suffer! If I could have him healthy, I would but not like it was. He suffered so much. Some of you were there and saw parts of it. Sometimes, I would just look up and the support was there! There were many supporting us! I could not leave anyone out! We had so much help, love and support! I will be hard pressed to repay all the love and kindness shown! (and still is being shown!) You all know who you are! We love each and every one of you! There were many of you who were with us in spirit who had other obligations and could not be with us physically! We know you were there for us too (and still are)! We could feel the strength from your prayers!

Judges 7:13

King James Version (KJV)

13And when Gideon was come, behold, there was a man that told a dream unto his fellow, and said, Behold, I dreamed a dream, and, lo, a cake of barley bread tumbled into the host of Midian, and came unto a tent, and smote it that it fell, and overturned it, that the tent lay along.

On a lighter note! It is hot today! I can't believe how hot it is.....and here we are complaining and in about 6 weeks, we will start complaining about how cold it is getting. We are never happy are we!

It is 10 am on Wednesday. In one week, I get my CPAP mask, at least I hope I do, I go to the Dr. that day. I hope that's the plan. I have no experience in this matter! I guess I will find out!

I love y'all!
To be continued...............

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

144 ......

Have you every thought about how you can make your day good or bad by the attitude you take into it? Well, I am here to tell you you can.....especially in the work of service, and yes, nursing fits into that category! As do store clerks, waitresses, and many other professions! If I go to work with the attitude that I am going to have a bad day, I usually do, if I go into it with the attitude that I am going to have a good day, then I usually do regardless of how busy it gets. There is a prayer called the Serenity Prayer that goes like this:
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change,
Courage to change the things I can,
and wisdom to know the difference.
One of my supervisors once said (to me because I was upset about something) "you can catch more flies with sugar than you can with vinegar"--that got me to thinking how what was happening was something I could not do anything about, and asking her for what I needed was the right thing to do even though there was nothing she could do to help me. I would just have to do the best I could with what I had and make due. The thing that got me was how I reacted to the situation directly influenced the people I was working with and others around, and how if my attitude was more positive, much would improve! She never said it in those words. From that day forward, I make an effort to start out each day with a positive attitude. I also find when I am around many negative individuals, it rubs off on those around. I don't want to be in that situation. I want things to be positive. Change is part of life and change in the medical world is part of our work life. Rules change and we have to be flexible with those changes, do what is best for our patients and if the "evidence" says something works better this way or that way and we opt to change our practice through policies and procedures, then that is how it should be. Period. And we must adapt, somewhat like the Borg from Star Trek. Resistance is futile. We must adapt our work lives and habits to service our patients to the best of our ability for their benefit. That is what I became a nurse help patients back to a healthy state and that is what they pay me for. Period.

Enough of that soap box. I am still having a little trouble believing this is really August already! This year has flown by. I feel the older I get, the quicker the years pass. In all reality, that can not be you know, but it seems that way! It still takes 365 days for a year to pass and there are 24 hours in a day, but it does seem that way lol.

Notice that the days are getting shorter lol! They are you know.....a minute here and a minute there......sunrise a minute later each day or two and sunset a minute earlier each day or will be dark until seven am before too long and dark by five pm before too long.....then CHRISTMAS!!

I love y'all!
To be continued..................

Monday, August 1, 2011

145 and counting

I can not believe it is August first! And that day is almost over......The year is way over half over! Where did it go? Christmas is 145 days away, can't believe it! I am so far behind on many projects! I hope to get those caught up within the next couple weeks! I guess I am a procrastinator! I just don't understand sometimes how time flies and I get farther and farther behind! I guess I will just laugh it off.

Last night after I got home from work, I got a message from my friend Sandy that our pastor is not going to stay with us. We have a couple weeks to get ready to call a new pastor. I am not surprised, because I had a feeling about it. I do wish he could stay, but his lead is gone and when it is over, it is over. At this point, I don't have a strong lead for any particular person. I had the same thing happen last year, and if it does not get stronger, I will not participate in the voting. And, of course, if it does get stronger, it will remain between me and the Lord. I don't believe in electioneering for pastor. I believe the Lord sends the lead to the preacher, he knows where he is supposed to be and the church, if they are up on their praying will know who to call. Anything less can lead to chaos and dissension in the church. That is not how I want to serve the Lord! I haven't had a strong lead for pastor in quite a while. I did (as did many others) when Brother Steve was there, and really did not when he left. I knew (as did several others) he was going to leave, but did not have a strong lead one way or another, but the lead I felt was too weak to use was the man they called......I do know I should have "listened" to that lead. I will try to pray to strengthen what I feel, and if it doesn't get stronger, I will have to decide what I am going to do.

Acts 1:24-26

King James Version (KJV)

24And they prayed, and said, Thou, Lord, which knowest the hearts of all men, shew whether of these two thou hast chosen,

25That he may take part of this ministry and apostleship, from which Judas by transgression fell, that he might go to his own place.

26And they gave forth their lots; and the lot fell upon Matthias; and he was numbered with the eleven apostles.

And though we are not calling apostles, we calling the man who will lead us the next year. Please pray for us that we do the right thing. I thought this scripture was appropriate.

I love y'all!
To be continued.................