Wednesday, June 27, 2012


That is the entire post for tonight.
John 13:34-35 "A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another." ~ KJV
I love all y'all.
To be continued..........

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Am I so old that......

Empty Arms: Hope and Support for Those Who Have Suffered a Miscarriage, Stillbirth, Or Tubal Pregnancy [Book]Am I so old that there is a memory for every time of year? 25 years ago this week Amanda Renee Sanders would have made her debut. (I think it would have been a girl but it was way to early to know). She would have been our second child. She didn't make it past 8 weeks or so. I had just confirmed the pregnancy the week before we lost her and had already picked out a girls name. I was upset I was pregnant so soon, Val was only 10 months old when we found out and when we lost her I was even more upset because I had so much guilt that I had been upset that I was pregnant. I felt like her loss was my fault when in reality it happens so much before we even know about the pregnancy. I just happened to know. I still wonder what she would have looked like. What her personality would have been. I was given a copy of "Empty Arms" which was written by Pam Vredevelt. It is a book to help women who have suffered pregnancy loss. It really helped me. I was able to share the book with Rick's cousin Beth when she and Jarrod suffered their first loss. She said it really helped them get through. Also the Lord helps us get through. We just have to learn to lean on Him. That is what Ann Booth helped me do with that loss. There would be 3 more until 1990 when I found out that we were getting to move back closer to home and that I was pregnant one more time. That time though would have a very different end than the previous 4.  :)

One week from today will mark the 27th anniversary of our marriage. For the past 2 years this is a difficult time for me. While our years together weren't always a bed of roses, they were our years together. Good times, bad times I think if most people are honest, most couples have ups and downs. Two people can not live together in perfect harmony 7 days a week 365 days a year. The good part is the effort they make together. That is how you stay together. You both work at it. And it will soon be 28 months since he left but it feels like 28 hours sometimes. I miss him. I still hear him shuffle through the living room to the computer room. If the remote falls, I hear him drop it. His cell phone is still active so I can still hear his voice. I still dream about him. His garden spots are still visible. His spot is still visible out in the garden where he made his arrangements for his eternal home. I cherish that spot. It is as dear to me as my own spot because it assures me one day I will see him again.
Trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed. Psalm 37:3 KJV 
I love all y'all!
To be continued..........

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Duct tape helps

There is an old saying "you can't fix stupid but duct tape helps" and there are those who are so stupid as to try to intimidate people. Today while I was driving home from a meeting, I was coming down to where the 4 lanes become 2 and was behind a truck behind a dark car and they were going too slow so I go around them. I have about 50 yards or less left and the car driver looks over and speeds up and tried his best to cut me off. I went a bit faster and got on over. I was to turn left in a few yards and when I stopped to make my turn, he acted like he was going to hit me. Then he swerved around me, blew his horn and yelled obscene language at me.  I gave my signal with plenty of time for him to slow down. I really wish I knew who it was. He went straight ahead. I would like to duct tape that foul mouth of his! Whew. What a day. Brought back all kinds of feelings from 21 1/2 years ago when I was rear ended at a stop sign and Nick was born early because of it. I really thought this guy was going to hit me. It appeared he tried to then had second thoughts. I was afraid. I hate pain! And he was going pretty fast. It would have hurt me. Luckily there were no oncoming cars and I could whip it in the right lane of the road I was turning onto. Only thing that saved me- well that and he swerved around to the right too at the same time. I wonder if he was on the phone or texting? I put on my signal pretty close to that white house because he was so close behind me.

On a lighter note-- I made a marvelous meatloaf for lunch. It was perfect! Some may say it had too much ketchup on top. Not me. It was perfect. Just the right amount of onion. Yum. And there was enough left over I had it again for supper!

Been feeling like there was a dead mouse in my utility room. Nick found it today. I hate mice. I also don't like bunnies in my yard eating my rose bushes. Well, rose bush. I only have one and it appears to have been chewed on and we have a yard full of bunnies! It was Rick's rose bush. I hope it comes out of it and I really don't wanna hurt the bunnies. Any ideas?

Trial was postponed yet again. Keep praying! I believe it is because they have no case and they don't want to let it go and have to admit they were wrong.
Delight yourself in the LORD and he'll give you the desires of your heart. - Psalms 37:4
I love all y'all!
To be continued...........

Monday, June 18, 2012

Disappointing day!

Nick had court today. Trial starts Friday. I wish the prosecutor could see he has no case but he doesn't. We have the truth on our side so we should prevail.

So I was reading FB today and you know there are these auto posts of Bible verses on my wall every day. Well, when I got home this was the post:

Psalm 139:23-24
King James Version (KJV)
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:24 And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Made me cry. It was exactly what I needed to read. I love the Psalms. I love how God sees fit to send exactly what I need when I need it every time!

I ask for your prayers that all goes as it should on Friday. 

I love all y'all!
To be continued...............

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Father's Day Weekend

It has been quite a long weekend! Had to work on Friday, had balloon pump call on Saturday and we had 2 pumps so in I went. By late morning both pumps had been pulled so I got to go home. I kind of felt bad about leaving early but when I counted all the help we had, I knew it was right because no one had 3 patients. So it was OK like that! Originally I had put in for vacation this past week and this coming week but after my 3 weeks off in June, I decided to work. I was able to go to the Wilson reunion on Saturday, got there a bit late but got there. Rick's son, Greg, and his wife and son were able to be there and meet family. It was a good afternoon. Then we went over to the store and Greg and Michaelle got to meet Keith.  That was good too because Rick and Keith were close.

Saturday night we had church at Miller Hill and Sunday was homecoming service. It was a good day in many ways because some folks who haven't been in a while were there today. It was good in many other ways. I didn't take food or stay for the dinner today. I have just been so very tired and not breathing the best so I came on home. Today was also Father's Day. Nick and I went up to my parents house for a while late this afternoon. It was a good visit.

         John 3  verses 1-16

There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews:The same came to Jesus by night, and said unto him, Rabbi, we know that thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do these miracles that thou doest, except God be with him.Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born?Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God.That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one that is born of the Spirit.Nicodemus answered and said unto him, How can these things be?10 Jesus answered and said unto him, Art thou a master of Israel, and knowest not these things?11 Verily, verily, I say unto thee, We speak that we do know, and testify that we have seen; and ye receive not our witness.12 If I have told you earthly things, and ye believe not, how shall ye believe, if I tell you of heavenly things?13 And no man hath ascended up to heaven, but he that came down from heaven, even the Son of man which is in heaven.14 And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up:15 That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life.16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

I love all y'all!
To be continued.......

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Update on Nate

Nathan just can't catch a break! Bless his little heart! He was in his back yard and a neighbor's dog bit him. He has several puncture marks! Hope he heals quickly and without problems!

I got to see my babies today-they were with their mom at the Dollar Store at Chalybeate. Tobi saw me first. She said "I have to see you Gamma!" So sweet, and of course Bubba had to see me too! He's my boy! He wanted a motorcycle. Tobi got a pom-pom. Livvy got a baby toy. You could hear her all over the store! She was one unhappy little girl! Val said she hadn't had much of a nap today and you sure could tell!

My persimmon Fiesta plate came today. I was happy about that. I do need a Fiesta persimmon latte mug--but I don't think they make that, at least the replacements ltd place didn't have it..... I also got the tangerine place setting I ordered a while back. In fact, every time I went to the bathroom this morning, a delivery came! First, it was UPS (they do know where our house is now!--it was the same young man) delivery for Nick, next was my persimmon plate the mailman brought then FedEx brought the tangerine delivery. I was happy!

Nick got the  grounds at Miller Hill ready for Sunday. It is Homecoming Service. If you are reading this and live around here and want to be there, we would love to have you! Lots and lots of good food will be there I am certain AND there will be more than enough to go around a few times! There always is!
Joshua 24:15 "And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD." (KJV)
I love all y'all!
To be continued.........

Saturday, June 9, 2012


Nathan Ashworth, Rick's Grandson
This young man is Greg's son Rick's grandson and my step-grandson. He broke his elbow recently. It has been a difficult few days for Greg, Michaelle and Nate. But, looking at the picture, he is handling it well!

I do wish Rick could have known Greg and his family. He wondered a lot about his firstborn and if he had grandchildren through him. He would be pleased to know we made contact and we are developing relationships with them. Remember, the summer before the tumor was found we were within miles of their home--just didn't know it. Even though he never knew about them, he often wondered. After the tumor was found, he worried whether he should try harder to find him. He just never got the chance. And had I not opened an email from someone I didn't know, we might not know them either. The Wilson reunion is coming up in a week. They plan to attend. I hope I get to be there so they know someone there. Nick will be there with them. Valarie has to work I am on call, so I won't know until the day of whether I get to be there or not AND I might not be able to stay once I get there. We will see. I will post pictures here if I get to go.

Hang tough Nate, Gamma Myra loves you and hopes you heal quickly!  Good luck buddy!

It has been a rough week at work. I am grateful for wonderful coworkers who help get through the shift. Now that the moon is waning, I hope it gets a bit easier!
“Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.” Matthew 7:13-14 KJV
I love all y'all!
To be continued............

Thursday, June 7, 2012

My Babies

from left: Perry, Livvy and Tobi
My babies came to see me today. They are the sweetest babies when they want to be and they are "mean little babies" when they want to be! They are still very precious. It is very hard to believe October Rose will be 4 years old in just over 4 months, her brother will be 3 a week later and her sister is already one. They grow up so fast. I got lots of hugs which I love. First thing Bubba wanted my coke. I got him his own. You know, no one gets Gamma's coke. LOL! Anyway. It was a pretty good day. Was expecting a delivery from UPS and got to leave work early. Got home and found out that the UPS delivery person turned around at the mailbox without looking for my house. Must be the same person who about 6 weeks ago left my new iPhone hanging on the fence because he "couldn't find my house". He knows now how to find my house. :) I was nice. Really.

I got to have lunch with Valarie today after I went to Brownsville to meet the UPS delivery guy to pick up my delivery. Really, I was nice. I was. Ask Valarie. 

I got to work this morning and found too many nurses. No one had overtime, so since I was expecting that delivery, I asked to get to go home. So I did. And I put it to good use too. I got a new door clicker remote thingy at Campbell Chevrolet today. It is worth $70 to me to have that thing. It is useful in locking the car, setting the alarm, it unlocks the trunk.....turns on the interior light. I like it.

Watching CSI Miami, a guy just "boiled to death" from chemicals in a pool. Yuk!

It was a productive day.

I love all y'all!
To be continued.............

I was nice.  :)

“Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever thou hadst formed the earth and the world, even from everlasting to everlasting, thou art God. For a thousand years in thy sight are but as yesterday when it is past, and as a watch in the night.” Psalm 90:2,4 KJV
I love the Psalms!

Saturday, June 2, 2012

My friend

It was such a busy day today and I am glad in a way because there was not time to think about what today is. It is another of those "anniversary" days except this is the first anniversary of the death of a dear friend who was so very much like a daughter to me.
Jennifer Rene Grote 2/24/1981 - 6/2/2011. There are so many songs out that remind me of loved ones who have gone on. I still cry when I hear them.
Your gorgeous smile
your eye rolling
your 'shut it'
your blue fingers
your friendship
your beautiful eyes
I miss all these things about you. I miss you.

I will never forget the day we were walking to the car after work and you could not walk and talk at the same time. I asked you when you had another appointment with your Lupus doctor at Vandy. You said in a couple of days. I said please do not leave until you know why you can't walk and talk at the same time.

You did just that. I was at work, it was mid afternoon, the phone rang. It was you and Pam. I could hear in your voice. You knew what the verdict was. I was so afraid of what it would be. And so it was. I called everyone around the nurses station. I explained what we were facing. We stopped what we were doing and had prayer for you. We cried. We loved you so very much. We asked God to help you.
He did.

Over the next few months you became unable to work with us. We still talked to you on the phone and sometimes visited. There would be trying days ahead. Over a few more months more and more time in the hospital left us with a fear that the end would be near and soon there was a close call. Chad's mom called me at work and gave me the news to share. You were in ICU and not doing well. We cried. We prayed. We made plans and we visited you on Monday. Your mother-in-law and sisters-in-law kept watch over you and "guarded" the door. We were all able to see you. You made us behave and not cry in front of you. You rallied. God was not quite ready for you. We prepared. Soon after that you would make your last journey to UK Medical Center where God would take you home. We went to Indiana to say goodbye to you. You looked like you should open those pretty eyes and tell us to 'shut-it'.

At your funeral I gained a new respect for Chad. I loved it when he said 'if I had it to do all over again, knowing what I know now, I would do it all again.' Beautiful. Just like you. And that baby girl is just like her momma. Smile and all.

I love you and I miss you.  Until that day when the trumpet of the Lord shall sound and time shall be no more and we will meet again.
Psalms 145:3 “Great is the LORD, and greatly to be praised, and his greatness is unsearchable.” (KJV)
I love all y'all.
To be continued...........