Friday, August 31, 2012



They say your dreams are wishes your heart makes when you sleep. My heart has been wishing for Rick these past couple of weeks. I have been dreaming about him almost every night. Sometimes the dreams seem so real. Sometimes I know in the dream that it isn't real and sometimes I don't. We are less than a week from the 2 and 1/2 year mark of his death and only 3 months from the 3 year mark from the tumor being found and less than 2 months from the 28 year mark from our meeting.  I guess that is why I am dreaming about him more. I know many people miss him. I also know no one misses him more than me. He was my husband, my best friend, he was everything to me.  There is another song about what do you do when you get that kind of news......there wasn't time to do the things the person the song was about did. I think we should do those things while we have our health, enjoy our life, treat our loved ones with the respect and dignity they deserve, be nice to everyone we meet, there is very rarely a reason to be ugly to someone - I used to be that way until one time I was saying something, though true as it was, a family member of the person heard me. I regret that to this day and that was 34 years ago. I hope I learned something by that. As I type this I am reminded of something else and I will need to do better at watching what I say.  Sometimes I don't want to go to sleep because I don't want to dream about something that can not be. Sometimes I still think about everything that happened. And I know I am not supposed to question or ask God why but sometimes I can't help it. He had turned his life around, was living right, things were going his way and boom - the tumor and the kind it was there is still no cure. I know God has a plan, I know I shouldn't question it. I can still hear Him whisper to me "trust Me" daily. I don't want to fail His command. I am still trying. It is just so hard sometimes. It is very difficult when I go to church and look over to where he used to sit and he isn't there. And when someone sings on of his favorite songs and he isn't there. It is difficult to be there. And Satan tries to use that to get me not to go. Then I am reminded of the promise I got early Christmas morning 2008. There is no place to stop. Just when I begin to get to where I can deal a little with it, here comes a dream and opens it up again. Maybe one day it won't hurt so bad, but I don't know when that some day will be. It just isn't describable.
“O come, let us worship and bow down: let us kneel before the LORD our maker. For he is our God; and we are the people of his pasture, and the sheep of his hand. To day if ye will hear his voice,” Psalm 95:6-7 KJV
I love all y'all!
To be continued.............

Monday, August 27, 2012

Early morning

Early in the morning it is so nice sitting outside sipping my coffee, so peaceful listening to the sounds in the distance:  horses whinny, the roosters crowing, owls calling, watching the sky go from dark with the stars shinning to the first hint of morning to the bright rays of sunshine. I wonder how on this earth could someone see and hear all these wonders and not believe in God? The majesty in the sunrise, in the thunder, in the lightening, in the calm peace of twilight- how can they not believe? Have they never felt the presence of the Lord at the birth of their child or grandchild? At the death of a loved one? What do you suppose they believe it is that they feel in their heart? I guess I am not here to speculate what one feels at such times. I know what I felt when my Tobers, Bubba and Livvy were born. I know what I felt in my heart in the hours and minutes before during and just after Carlos left us and then again in those precious hours and minutes as Ricky left us. I know the loved ones in the room felt it too.
Photo: I've been awake Over an hour, watched Andy this morning. Cute. It was about when Floyd hired the manicurist and no one would let her file their nails 'til Andy hurt her feelings then helped sitting on the porch with my coffee in the crispness of the pre-sunrise listening to Bruno cry because he can't join me, the owl and horses in the distance.... Roosters and now a whip poor will (however you spell that) its so peaceful. And beautiful. Y'all have a great day!
Sunday morning just before sunrise, just before I was gonna get ready for work.
On another note, had physical therapy today. It was the second treatment. I learned some new stretches. My ankle aches some but it doesn't hurt like it did. Jennifer said there is some kind of treatment she can do to actually dissolve the spur! I am excited by that prospect. Now, if only Dr Avula will order it.........

I think this is about it for today. Please remember to pray and please remember your friends and loved ones in your prayers.
“Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.” Isaiah 26:3KJV
I love all y'all!
To be continued..............

Friday, August 24, 2012

You know, just more stuff!

First I want to say thanks to anyone and everyone who put up a prayer on behalf of  the Smith's. Jean's funeral was yesterday. It was a good service - as good as those could be. Sandy Wilson sang a beautiful song for them. I am not sure the name of it but it was beautiful and touching. She wrote the song and she has such a beautiful voice! I know the whole family appreciated everyone who put up a prayer, came by the funeral home, brought food, sang for the service......our friends and families are the best!

Yesterday was a busy day for me. I had to have labs drawn as a check. Nothing wrong, just checking thyroid levels, checking on blood sugar, vitamin D level which has been chronically low though I am outside lots and take supplemental D. Also had a mammogram which was normal, and had a physical therapy evaluation for this plantars fascitis. That about killed me and my foot has ached all day off and on. That reminds me, I need to take my melixocam. I got all this done before 11 am so I could get to the funeral home before noon so I could spend time with family before the funeral. I got to see Marie and her daughter Vickie. Marie is the widow of C. V. Smith who was Jean's brother-in-law (her husband's brother). I hadn't seen her since C. V. passed away several years ago. I also got to see her daughter whom I haven't seen since then either and it was only briefly when her dad died. Before that it had been years. It is sad that we don't get to see family at other times besides funerals but it seems that except for those who live near us, we don't get to see our loved ones. I believe I have said before, blood is blood to me and if we are related, to me it doesn't matter what number cousin you are, kin is kin. I love my family. All of them.

My nephew, Jeffrey, has been having a bit of chest pressure for a while now, and had an abnormal treadmill so had to have a heart cath today because of our family history. I am pleased as punch to report all is well. His coronary arteries are clean. Dr. Emanuele thinks he could have a very small vessel (that is not possible to see due to its size to find or fix but could cause pressure) blocked causing his tightness and will treat with medication to try to help his chest pressure. Nothing major is even slightly blocked. Heart pumps well.  YAY! God is good!


122 days until Christmas

67 days until Halloween

90 days until Thanksgiving!!

I just thought y'all might want a refresher on how many days are left until various holidays!  Listening to EC whoop up on Muhlenberg County. It has been a good game, now Coach Pierce is playing the JV guys for the last part of the fourth quarter. 

I think this is all for tonight. Sleep well friends, please don't forget to pray!

I love all y'all!
To be continued................

“I love the LORD, because He hath heard my voice and my supplications. Because He hath inclined His ear unto me, therefore will I call upon Him as long as I live.” Psalm 116:1-2 KJV

Sunday, August 19, 2012


As I was growing up, some of my first memories are with my cousins Donna Smith Hyatt and her sister Debbie. We grew up together, played together, fussed together. There were times when people thought Deb and I looked more like sisters than Donna and Deb. We have great grandparents in common. Our fathers are the same generation in our family as are we.

Our great grandparents Al and Eliza Beth James
Many times when we would go to Bowling Green, we would swing by and Donna, Deb and Jean would go with us. Mom was not comfortable driving in BG, so Jean would drive. We used to sing cute songs on our way. One was the blackbird song. We would tell stories. As I wrote in a previous blog, one of the first places I spent the night was at their house, Jean had to rock me to sleep--I got homesick. We played Barbies -- I had Barbie and they had Skipper and Scooter.

After my Baptizing, we went over to their house. They were a lot like sisters to me rather than cousins. Our dads were first cousins. Donna and I were in the same nursing school class. Before I went to high school, I spent my "freshman day" in the eighth grade with Donna (she was a freshman).  Lewis and Jean stood up with my parents when my parents married. Jean was about 3 months along with Donna.

Jean never missed an opportunity to teach us girls about growing up without our even knowing that was what she was doing. Life lessons. She led by example and she will be missed.

Donna and Donny Hyatt
Jean Smith Debbie Smith
My heart is heavy tonight as I learned of Jean's death. She was a sweetheart, loved everyone she met. She will be missed! She is at rest now and one day we will see her again.
               Matthew 5
                Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. 

I love all y'all
To be continued............

Don't forget to pray!

Just more stuff......

Mom heard from Donita. It is a good thing! The "mass" on her kidney is just a cyst and the "mass" where the other kidney was is just scar tissue filling in the empty space. Her Dr will keep an eye on the cyst but he does not believe it to be a tumor from how it looks. That still small voice that said "trust Me" will never fail us. His will and His alone will be. I am grateful for the prayers that were said in her behalf.

Most wonderful church service today.

Home alone on this beautiful Sunday afternoon. Think I will get out and about and enjoy the rest of the day.

Brother Cecil quoted from the Psalms last night and it happened to be one of my favorite verses. I love the Psalms in case you didn't know. It went home with me last night and is still on my heart.

Don't forget to pray.

I love all y'all
To be continued.............

Psalm 51

King James Version (KJV)
51 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.
Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.
Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities.
10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.
12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness.
15 O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.
16 For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering.
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
18 Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.

Thursday, August 16, 2012

It has been a difficult day

With all going on in the land today, I was trying to have a little "me" time and look at Facebook for a bit so while reading posts on Facebook, I came across my brothers mother-in-law's post asking for prayer for her daughter (who is my sister-in-law). My heart sank. When Britty was a baby, Donita had to have a nephrectomy-(one of her kidneys removed due to stones). Now, it seems Donita has a mass of some sort on her remaining kidney. I have not talked to her, but Freda's post concerned me. There may also be something in the place where the other kidney was. I am asking you to send up prayers that these masses are nothing but shadows or stones and nothing to worry about. Please!  I can hear that same still, small voice whisper "trust Me" just the way He did almost 3 years ago. I am trying my best. I certainly don't want to cause an alarm over nothing. My prayer is that it is only shadows or stones and I shall:  Have faith in God and His plan for her and their family. And trust that faith. And have confidence
in my friends to pray for her!
Now, remember when Rick was sick and in the hospital for that long six weeks and the daily Bible posts that would be something I needed to read every time I needed to read it? Today was no exception. It makes me cry just reading it now. Then there was another post referring us to the 100th Psalms. It, too was so appropriate for me today. God always sends what we need if we but listen! As always, please continue to remember your friends/neighbors in your prayers!
Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; (24) And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting.

Psalm 100
King James Version (KJV)
100 Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all ye lands.Serve the Lord with gladness: come before his presence with singing.Know ye that the Lord he is God: it is he that hath made us, and not we ourselves; we are his people, and the sheep of his pasture.Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name.For the Lord is good; his mercy is everlasting; and his truth endureth to all generations.

He always provides!
I love all y'all!
To be continued...............

Monday, August 13, 2012

Following up on the CPAP etc

So I had an appointment with Dr Avula this morning. Thought I would never get there! His office is in Smiths Grove, a hop-skip-and a jump right? Well, as soon as I turned onto 743, there was a car going 35mph. Speed limit there is 55 mph. So I had to stay behind him until I got down the knob because of oncoming traffic in the passing lanes. So I go around the big curve at the cut through road and around the next curve in front of the trailer park and guess what. Another car doing 30 mph. I am about half way there and time is OK but if I keep going half the speed I will be late. :(  so I get to the 31W turn and viola! He goes right, I am going left! No further delays and NO TRAIN at Oakland or Smiths Grove and I arrived on time for my appointment! Got good news too. My CPAP card was uploaded to be evaluated. There is a thing called AHI which is Apnea-Hypopnea Index and mine was 0.6! Sleep apnea is staged: AHI of 5-20 mild sleep apnea, 21-50 moderate, above 50 severe. Mine was 55 a year ago. Think I need CPAP?

And I have been very faithful using the CPAP 98+% of the time--only didn't wear once or twice when my nose was so stopped up I couldn't use it--  If you are reading this and have sleep apnea, I beg you to get a sleep study and WEAR YOUR CPAP! Having sleep apnea affects your heart and blood pressure, feet/legs swelling and your general health. Not to mention you could fall asleep driving and hurt yourself or someone else! I told Dr Avula I was addicted to it--can't sleep without it! Everything else was good, gotta have fasting labs repeated. That is nothing new. My cholesterol is borderline at last check and I just need to keep it below the meds needed range! I do have quite a family history of heart disease. I don't want any blockages. I know my heart arteries are good.  I did have one other little problem--my right foot/ankle are killing me. I know I have a heel spur that is old news. It doesn't bother me anymore really, only once in a great while but the past few weeks or so my right heel has hurt so bad, some nights I have cried with it. I asked him about it and Quentin xrayed it. My heel spur has a new friend. A new heel spur has developed on the back of my heel. :( I will go to physical therapy for a bit and take yet another pill for the inflammation. Look up plantar fascitis and it will explain it all.

This is not my xray but these spurs are in the same place as my spurs. The one on the bottom of the foot is in the same place as mine, it is the old one. The one on the back of the heel is close, and it is the new one. Those sharp edges dig into the tissue causing great pain especially first thing in the morning after being off my feet for a few hours.

I guess this is all for today. I go back to Dr Lin in November to see what if anything else is needed. I am beginning to feel better as the days go by now that the extreme heat has subsided. I wasn't sure I could go much longer had it not cooled off some! It was affecting my breathing quite a bit! I was thinking my meds weren't doing much but it's all better, swelling ankles have gone way down too.

Please remember Jean, Donna and Deb in your prayers as Jean battles that dreaded cancer. They are taking care of her, and as she weakens, it will get harder for them.

I love all y'all!
To be continued..........
Psalm 121:1-2 "I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help. My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth." ~ KJV
I love the Psalms!

Sunday, August 12, 2012

August is almost half over!

I find it difficult to believe that August is almost half over! This year has flown by! It just seems like yesterday was the first day of summer. Summer will be over in just under six weeks! Did anyone see the meteor shower last night (early this am)? It happens every August and is called the Perseid meteor shower. Some years it is better than others, I used to set an alarm to get up to watch. I haven't done that in a couple of years. If I had been off this weekend, I would have because it was supposed to have been the best in a few years.  The Leonids are also an annual event in November. Some years with either event you can see up to 100 falling stars per hour. That was the case last night. I find it awesome!

It was another moving out day for Wendy and I in CCU. We moved 3 patients of our own out today! Great for them!

This is a photo of the sunset tonight from my kitchen window. I wish you could see it the way I saw it! It looked like the sky was on fire. It was so pretty and very colorful!

It is only 79 days until Halloween!

100 days left until Thanksgiving....and we are going to do it again this year beginning November first make the first or last status of your day something you are thankful for and do that each day until Thanksgiving.  You can do it! We did an awesome job of it last year!

And last but not least there are 134 days left until Christmas Day!

I know I have posted this recently, I can not see it enough! It is so true!!

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." KJV

Please remember all the families --   and there are many who have lost loved ones especially those who have lost them recently. Please remember all those who have loved ones suffering. Please remember all those families who are caring for their loved ones. Please remember your friends and neighbors in your prayers.  Take some food over to those neighbors who are caring for their loved ones. Even a loaf of bread and sandwich meat would help!

I love all y'all!
To be continued.................

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Just more stuff, it's ok!

OK, it was a good day in many ways at work today. It seems though it is not meant for Wendy and I to keep our patients all day. It's good for the patients of course, but we are checked off on moving people out now. HaHaHa. 

It was a long night last night. I cried for about an hour after I went to bed. The movie was a great movie, I recommend it highly. It just brought back so many memories. Rick and I were so much like Kay and Arnold......there were of course some differences. We almost made it to 25 years, we didn't drink alcohol, and a few other things but there were many similarities. I won't spoil the movie for you. It just made me think about him a lot. 

Tomorrow is the twenty-eighth anniversary of the birth and death of my niece, Jessica Lynn James. She just came too early and couldn't survive. She was something like 26 weeks, which was just way too early. She was so tiny and warm and I got to hold her that night. I cherish the memory. Her features were well developed, she was so tiny and fragile. She weighed around a pound if I remember correctly. She looked like her sisters and her brother and her cousins. She had features from the James/Bird/Stice line. I suppose that is another reason I am a bit sad. I always remember her birthday and the day she left us. We never got to know her. 

I am thinking this is all for tonight. 
I love all y'all!
To be continued.................
"Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed ; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."~ Isaiah 41:10

Friday, August 10, 2012

Hope Springs

This evening I went to see Hope Springs with Meyrl Streep and Tommy Lee Jones. It is well written and well played by two veteran actors. But it was a little too real in some ways. I cried through the whole movie pretty much. It is good, and it is worth seeing definitely. It is the first movie I have gone to see since Star Trek Nemesis in 2002. That was 10 years ago. I don't believe I have been to a movie since until tonight. I don't regret seeing it, but I am still tearful. It made me miss Rick. We were going to renew our vows for our 25th anniversary. We were making plans when life got in the way. I know God has a plan. I just don't understand it sometimes. I am just having a sad evening. I am OK though.

See the movie. You will not regret it.

I love all y'all
To be continued..............

Mark 10:8
King James Version (KJV)
And they twain shall be one flesh: so then they are no more twain, but one flesh.

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Just more stuff - my opinion as always!

I was reading some Facebook posts last night. Seems like I read a lot of those. There were two from different sources that were about the same topic. I see it and I live it daily. We, as a nation, don't seem to fear God anymore. There are so many who don't believe there is a God. Not that you will listen to me, but let me assure you there is!

We just go about our lives and we don't put Him first. At least I don't. When things are going wrong, I look and see that I am putting lots of things before Him. When I put Him first, life goes in a better direction. Most of the last 27 years were spent longing to be able to go to church when I wanted to and not be afraid to go. That changed in May 2002 and the remainder of time with Rick was spent in church somewhere every Sunday. I am extremely grateful for that. I am grateful for the blessing of hearing Rick testify for the Lord with feeling so many times. With that blessing comes another -- the knowledge of the hope he had provides peace of mind that his soul is at rest until the Great Day of Judgement.

A cousin posted:
"I have posted this before but thought it worthy of posting again. "THE FEAR OF THE LORD IS THE BEGINNING OF KNOWLEDGE, BUT FOOLS DESPISE WISDOM AND INSTRUCTION". Proberbs. Just thought this was something good to remember."
And it is so true. Then a while later a daily Bible verse posted:
"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge"~ Proverbs 1:7
And it is so true and tied right in. I am not trying to convince anyone of anything. I am simple stating what I believe and know. And if you love the Lord as you claim, why would you not believe His word? He never changes. If it was wrong thousands of years ago, it is wrong today. Period. Whatever it is. And I intend to do better.

You might say I am lying and you might say I am stupid and that there is no way that happened. You might say I am crazy. I may well be but there are things I know too. And I know that the whole 6 weeks Rick was on that vent and wondering if it would be his last day each day when things were at the darkest a verse would post that I needed to see to help me through that trying time. I believe God does work in mysterious ways. I really do.

That is all for today.
I love all y'all!
To be continued...........

Jeremiah 6:16
King James Version (KJV)
16 Thus saith the Lord, Stand ye in the ways, and see, and ask for the old paths, where is the good way, and walk therein, and ye shall find rest for your souls. But they said, We will not walk therein.

Thursday, August 2, 2012

Please keep the Smith's in your prayers!

Today Mom and I took some food over to my cousin's house. Their mom has been diagnosed with cancer. I wasn't prepared for how she would look. She gave us a hug. She looks so frail. I have so many good memories of her growing up. When my parents married, Jean and Lewis stood up with them. My dad and Lewis were first cousins. Donna, Debbie and I have a great grandfather in common. Lewis passed away a few years ago. They are facing this illness with great dignity. I wish I could do more for them but I don't really know what I could do. I know they have a long road ahead. I will send up prayers for them and I ask you to do the same. Jean has always been a good Christian woman, wife, mom, cousin. She raised her daughters to be that too. And they are. Jean always lead by example while we were growing up. She used opportunities when we were preparing a meal together to 'just talk' teaching values as she went. I wrote a little about that last night. She also had advice for me when Rick died. Advice I listened to with my heart. It was from hers. I will never forget. And I have no doubt that when her time comes, she will have a better place to go. There is no treatment that can be offered, it is too advanced. Your prayers for comfort for her family and for her as they face this trying time are appreciated. 

When we got home today, we found a visitor on the front door. I hate snakes, I believe the only good snake is a dead snake. Period. I am afraid though that this one may be a copperhead. Mom thought it was. She poked at it with a stick, it tried to strike at Nick. Granted, he was trying to kill it......Couldn't believe she poked at it! And what was I thinking. I had my phone and Brandon had his and neither of us shot video of Nick killing it! 

Well, I do think this is all for tonight. Please remember your friends and neighbors in your prayers, and remember, please don't judge each other. That is for God alone. Not us. Please remember to treat your friends, neighbors and those your meet in your daily walk as you would want to be treated yourself. Remember to pray. I will do my best to remember you in my prayers. Last night's post was not to judge, everyone who sins will be accountable on the Day of Judgement for their sins. Myself included! And I have many, many sins to answer for. 
“But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves.” James 1:22 KJV
I love all y'all!
To be continued.................

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

I Believe

So last night all this Chic-Fil-a attention got me to thinking. I believe the man who runs Chic-fil-a has a right to believe however he wants to believe. It is his company, so he has a right to run it however he sees fit AND he has the right to say his feelings out loud or in print. I am doing just that now.  I was raised to believe that same sex relationships were wrong. Not just my parents taught me that either. My neighbors and other family members took opportunities to teach us many things about life in general  as we were growing up. There were family values taught at home, at the neighbors home,  in the community, at church and at school. I love how I was raised and tried to teach my children as I was taught. I wasn't as successful as my parents. Now, when I say family values I am talking about (among other values) the golden rule, the 10 commandments, always put God first and everything will fall in it's place. I find that true. When my life seems to be falling apart, if I begin to look, I find I am putting something first besides God. When I get back to putting Him first, things fall into place yet again. I believe marriage is one man to one woman. The Bible says it in many, many books. The Bible also makes provisions for divorce. I do not believe God intended one spouse to abuse the other or one cheat on the other. And there are provisions for divorce in those instances.

Now, I also believe that although I am a Christian, I am not perfect in any way, shape form or fashion. And neither is anyone else. I am not saying Christians are perfect. I don't know anyone on this earth who is perfect. And I have seen many Facebook posts (from gays or people believing same sex relationship are OK) proclaiming that Christians think Christians are perfect and have a right to dis gays. I don't know any who believe that. And I know a lot of Christians. There are people I love with all my heart that claim to be gay. I still love them. If they were my children, I would still love them. That does not mean I would love or condone their behavior. And I would be as disappointed in that behavior, lifestyle or whatever you want to call it as I would many other behaviors....including if they married and divorced or had children out of wedlock (and I have 3 grandchildren whom I adore that way). While I love my grandchildren, I was very disappointed in the behavior. I still love Valarie and her babies. And I am sure there are people in my family who are gay. I still love them, but I don't love their lifestyle or behavior and I believe they should not expect me to.

I am not posting this to hurt anyone! I really am not. If this hurts you, please come to me and we will make it right. This is how I believe, it is how I was raised and I will believe this until the day I die. And guess what, it is my right to believe this way just as it is your right to reject it. And this is my blog and I shall post in it whatever I feel. You have the right not to read it. Period. It is that simple!

Last night's Facebook post prompting this post.....
I believe in guardian angels. I believe in love. I believe in God. I believe in the right to speak freely your opinion of any topic you choose. I believe in the rights of others to disagree. That would be their freedom of choice. I believe your opinion is yours to speak-- not to force on anyone. I believe in the right to keep and bear arms. I believe there are some things better left unsaid. I believe I feel a blog post brewing in the next couple of days....stay tuned....I believe that's all I have to say about that (for now).

I believe in God. I can not see God. I don't have to see Him to know He is real. I have felt His Holy Power in my heart many, many times. I have heard that still small voice whisper "trust Me" so many times. He saved my soul and one day I will spend eternity in Heaven. I do believe in angels. Don't think I have ever seen one, but I believe they are here and I believe Nick saw one one early morning in May in 1996. I know one was with Rick in 1999 when he almost died. I know one was with him during his brain tumor trials. I believe in love. I have seen love and I have felt it many, many times. I believe in the right to speak freely and I have, and will continue to, I believe in the right to keep and bear arms--I don't currently own a gun but look out, one day I may. And I do know how to shoot one. I do believe sometimes things are better left unsaid and if you have negative remarks about this blog post, keep them to yourself please or private message them to me. We will work it out. I believe in the right to not believe in the things I am writing. It is your right.

One of the verses of the Bible speaking on the above subject......there are many others! Google it! This is a copy/paste right from The Holy Bible.

Leviticus 20
King James Version (KJV)
13 If a man also lie with mankind, as he lieth with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them.

I love all y'all!
To be continued............