Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Time to go back to work

Star garland and a pillow for my birthday from my friend Sandy

My 4 day weekend is over! I go back to work tomorrow, but I have to say I have had 4 good days. My birthday was Saturday. I was overwhelmed by all the "happy birthdays" I received on facebook! I received nice gifts from friends/family. Had 2 birthday cakes! Mom made a chocolate one and had Beth Miller make a chocolate one! They were both good! Sunday was spent at Good Springs for the annual service, Monday was spent taking it easy. Today I did some laundry and still have a zillion dishes to do. But that is what dishwashers are for! Back to the grindstone tomorrow!

My cake mom had Beth to make

My orientee is set free now too. She is ready to fly. It is difficult as a preceptor sometimes to let go. But I will. I know she is ready to fly, she does a really good job. She could take care of my family without hesitation.

My friend Jennifer remains in need of your prayers. She needs a lung transplant to live. She is in serious to critical condition at UK Medical Center tonight. Jennifer is like a daughter to me. If I didn't have to work tomorrow I would go there tonight. Lupus attacks different organs with different people. It has attacked her lungs and she has what is called pulmonary hypertension. That means the low pressure side of her heart has to pump harder to get the blood to her lungs to get the oxygen to her body. A lung transplant would remove the pulmonary hypertension from her body. Then her heart would be ok. Being an organ recipient is a difficult thing in some cases. If you receive a heart or lungs, the donor has to be brain dead for you to get their organs. That would be a difficult decision I believe. I have never really thought too much about being a donor. I really don't know how I feel about it, but I do know if someone somewhere who matches Jennifer doesn't donate their lungs, she will not live too many more months. And that would be sad. She and Chad have a beautiful little almost 4 year old girl named Aubrey. She is as precious as her mom. I met Jennifer in August of 2004 when I came back to Bowling Green to work. She was one of the first people I met at night. We hit it off and bonded quickly. Pam, Jennifer and I all came to day shift within a few months of each other. We are like family. And it hurts when someone you love is so critically ill. She is almost like a daughter to me.

Psalm 40:5
Many, O LORD my God, [are] thy wonderful works [which] thou hast done, and thy thoughts [which are] to us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee: [if] I would declare and speak [of them], they are more than can be numbered.

I love y'all.
To be continued...........

Sunday, May 29, 2011

May 29, 2011 has been a very good day!

Good Springs United Baptist Church

(Jer 6:16 KJV)
Thus saith the LORD, Stand ye in the ways, and see, and ask for the old paths, where is the good way, and walk therein, and ye shall find rest for your souls. But they said, We will not walk therein.
Keith preached from this scripture today. He said some things I need to heed. I will do my best to take what he said and put it into my life. We will see what happens. It was a great day!

The picture above is a pencil drawing by Thomas M. G-------- (can't read his last name) of Good Springs United Baptist Church. This is where I chose to go today. Wonderful service! This is still the same building, chimney in the middle of the room, there is a "presence" of the old saints who used to go there as soon as you walk in. When Keith rang the bell, in my mind I could see 3 years ago when his papaw Roy rang that bell. I can not remember if he was there 2 years ago or not. I did not go last year. Ricks death was too close. He loved that place! And I still do. Good memories!

Since the May Rick was saved, we have been going to the Good Springs Homecoming service. I have had to miss a few because of work, but Rick went without me. I felt like I needed to honor him and go there today. He has family in that cemetery. Little Roy Sanders was Rick's dads cousin. Little Roy was Keith's grandfather. He was the pastor of Good Springs as long as he was able, then it was handed down to his grandson Keith. Keith was Rick's kin and he is my kin. His mother is my cousin. She is Uncle Lelan's daughter. Keith had 2 grandfathers who were good old time preachers. And he is continuing down that same path. Rick and Nick went to Good Springs a couple of years to help with the clean-up to get ready for the homecoming. This service is the only one they have all year. There is no electricity or running water there. It is the very same building they have always had.

The singing today was beautiful. They had several people singing all parts. It was heavenly! Wish you could have been there today!

In preaching today, I was reminded of an old man who used to go to Stockholm. His name was
Bill Whitlow. Bill was alone, came to church in his overalls, and had a speech problem. I have no idea what it was. He has a wagon and 2 mules and he drove that wagon around the community. I remember the churches taking up money and building him a little house. I remember not being able to understand much of what he said, but when he was in the spirit of the Lord, it was plainly understood. He was a good old saint!

There was so much food today. It was a good day. I love days like this. Rick would have enjoyed the day

I love y'all.
To be continued.............

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Today is my birthday

and it has been a great day! Today started off with Nick taking me to Cracker Barrel for breakfast. I came home, left again to run errands. Placed flowers on Rick's grave for Memorial Day, came back home, Nana called and wanted to fix supper. I went there about 3pm. We had a great supper, good laughs, Greg spit coke all the way across the table after some funny story from our past. Didn't get to see my babies today, but that is OK. I love my babies, and I miss them. I will see them soon. Mom had a cake baked and delivered to me by my friend Beth. It is chocolate and very, very good. It was a pretty cake until we cut it!

Tomorrow is homecoming at several churches. I want to go somewhere. Rick and I always went to Good Springs because his ancestors are there. My original home church was a "spin off" of Good Springs after the National Park took the land. Union Light has homecoming tomorrow as well. Much of my family goes there and my Childress grandparents as well as uncles and aunts are there. Wingfield has homecoming tomorrow. No relatives there by blood but very good friends and neighbors go there. So I must choose which place to go. My heart is telling me Good Springs so that is probably where I will go. Though, that will be difficult without Rick. Last year I had to work and didn't get to go anywhere. It would have been really difficult to go there last year. I actually have relatives who attend there as well. They also have family buried there. So I will know several folks there. My cousin Keith will conduct the services. His grandfather did so for many, many years and now it has fallen to him. He will continue the tradition for as long as he is able.

I just want to say how humbled and overwhelmed I am at all the birthday wishes I received today on facebook! I am in awe! Thank you to each and every one!

I love y'all!
To be continued................

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

severe weather

From last summer

I really hate storms! I just want all my friends and neighbors to be safe today. We are at very high risk for severe storms this afternoon with tornados, hail, strong wind. Please take the opportunity to get ready for what may happen. If we prepare, perhaps it will pass us by?! I hope you all stay safe! Rick always loved storms, but the summer kind, not the deadly kind!

I love y'all!
To be continued...........

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Jesse Stone!!!!

I really love the Jesse Stone movies on CBS! Tom Selleck is a great actor. I think there are none better out there! I grew up with Magnum PI. Loved that show! Oh, well.

Got some news from my friend Sandy today. She said they announced our revival will start June 12. I am in trouble. I am not close to being ready, I do, however, know how to get there. It is a matter of getting willing to do that. Better try!

It has been a busy 3 days at work, but we had good days. We had potluck today. I made the meatballs posted on the other blog, and are they good. I did add 2 tablespoons Ketchup to mine though and 2 or 3 tsp minced onion. I made 55 +/- and they were all gone but one, and now it's gone haha. It was a good day! But the best part of it is I now have 3 days off before I have to go back. I want to see my babies, so maybe I can do that!! We will see!

I am glad, too, that whoever that was that predicted the end of the world was wrong. I mean, really. As I posted the other night, no one knows but God Himself! And He won't share that with us, so it is up to us to be ready always! This guy just adds to the Bible fulfilling itself! I do believe the end days are near, but in the scheme of things we just don't know what that means and we aren't meant to. That's how it's supposed to be.

I am a little better with the depression. I still wanna find the idiot who called 911 about me. I still have a piece of my mind I'd like to share with him or her!

Y'all have a great night, a great week, and get ready!
Love y'all!
To be continued.........

Friday, May 20, 2011

Today has been a good day

I worked today, it was a good day. I had balloon pump call and of course we had one and so I had to go in. It didn't get taken out until nearly the end of our shift, so I just stayed. (I could have come home, but there was only about an hour left, so I stayed.) Mollie worked with Sam today, that had already been planned, so I just let them stay together. I was going to just let them stay together over the weekend too, keep the same patients. That makes perfect sense to me.

On another note. Have you heard the prediction of tomorrow at 6pm being the last day? Now, I don't know about you, but I read that no one, not even the angels in heaven know when the last day will be. Now, if it does happen, I am certainly ready (and glad I didn't commit suicide the other night lol) to go. I will have a lot to answer for, but I made my preparation 41 years ago at a place called Stockholm on a Saturday night. Personally, I believe what my Bible tells me. I believe though we have "wars, rumors of wars, earthquakes in diverse places" and many other things "the end is not yet" and there is still great trouble and tribulation to come before the end. You can read in Thessalonians, in Matthew, in Luke, in Revelations and many other books of the Bible and see for yourself the signs of the time are fulfilling but not quite fulfilled. I do believe it is near, but in the scheme of things what does that mean? In my life time? In my grand-children's lifetime? Or will it be farther out than that? Or will it be before the sun comes up in the morning?

If you "Google" the signs of the end, be careful. Remember, there are false profits out there as predicted by the Bible whose aim it is to deceive us and capture as many souls as they can.

And I am so glad I know Rick made his preparation for that hour nine years ago out in his garden. I will see him again one day.......

From Matthew 24

But of that day and hour knoweth no [man], no, not the angels of heaven, but my Father only.
The end for tonight....something to ponder......if you are not ready for the coming of the Lord, please find yourself a spot and get ready.

"When the roll is called up yonder I'll be there"

I love y'all!
To be continued.............

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

It has been a week since my last post

A lot has happened in this past week. For some reason I have felt a bit more depressed than "normal for me" over the past year. I realize that I am depressed and I am doing something about it. I have been on the verge of tears for over a week. Some say 'are you OK?' and I say I am fine because if I don't their just asking me the question brings the tears so close to falling. Some others say 'you are such a strong woman' -- let me be the first to tell you I am not strong. That statement, though very well meant brings those tears so close to falling. I have to choke them back. I am also having some anxiety. I know it, I feel it. I don't even know what it is about, but it is there. I was considering actually going to a doctor or a therapist about this, I haven't completely decided yet. I don't know if they could even help me. I guess I wouldn't know unless I tried. After Nick was born, after the accident I had to have help. I was diagnoses with PTSD. Me. Really. Post traumatic stress disorder. I couldn't get behind the wheel and drive without constantly checking to see if someone was too close. I still find myself looking in the mirror to see whose back there at every stop sign.

So back to a reason for this post. On my way home last night, I cried quite a lot, feeling quite down.....I had picked up food from a place Rick and I used to go, in fact our last night at home together we had food from there. It was almost a year before I could go inside the place. Anyway, I am sitting in my new chair eating my sweet and sour chicken when Nick yells "Mom, there are cops outside-2 of them!" I said "what now!" Well, I go to the door and there are 2 deputy's and 2 EMS guys from the Medical Center outside at my front porch (with their gloves on ready to save my life I guess!). I said, can I help you? Deputy says are you Myra? I say yes,....he says are you ok? I say yes... Why? I just got home from work and was eating a bit of supper. Deputy says he wants to see my ID - EMS guy says HI MYRA! I say who is it I can't see you back there....It's Brent Hartz (who used to be a first responder for WVFD when we had none and backed us up when we were new and helped my father-in-law on a few occasions that we had to call an ambulance for him-great young man)-- that satisfied the deputy for the ID. Apparently someone called dispatch from a cell (they have the number) and said I was very depressed and was going to take a bunch of pills and they knew my address and my daughter's name and my 'nine year old' (Nick is 20) was the only thing keeping me from taking the pills. I assured them I was OK and wasn't planning to kill myself. The deputy said, are you sure you're ok? I said man I'm depressed but I'm not that stupid. I'm fine! Go figure! I had to laugh at that point. I'm thinking how I'm driving home at 8:30 at night crying and I am alone on the road so no one could see me because it is dark at that time of night. How could someone assume because I am crying I am gonna do something so stupid anyway. Did I mention that I already had my nightgown on or that there wasn't time to change? So here I am on my front porch in my gown and robe, barefoot with Nick behind me if front of 3 strangers and a friend? That is so ridiculous!
"Do not be a fool--why die before your time?" (Ecclesiastes 7:17)
The nerve of some people. The Warren Co Dispatch has the phone number, I think I heard them say it was Val who called, or a friend of Val. The number seems vaguely familiar, but when they called it back nobody answered. Generic voice mail too. If I ever find out who this was, I will ask him or her why they did what they did and may see if I can press any charges. The ramifications of a suicide attempt would be so very far-reaching and difficult to overcome and some people believe everything they hear too! I called my boss last night to let her know if she hears something it was a prank/hoax call! She does notice though that I am sad right now. I just can't talk about it out loud. It makes me cry and I can't do that at work.

The other reason for my post today is I want to post a few pictures of my babies!

Bubba trying to give his new sister a bottle, doesn't look like she wants it to me....

Miss Olivia taking a nap in her bassinet

Precious sisters!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I have been so blessed

I have a new grand daughter. Her name is Olivia Rhea. She was born Friday May 6 (Nurses Day no less!) and is doing well. I have not loaded any pictures to the computer yet. I will post pictures as soon as I get them loaded. She weighed in at 7lbs 13 3/4 ounces and was 20 inches long. She is a good baby, she sleeps well. I will be seeing her soon.

My trip to Chicago was good, though I got homesick the same day we got there. I wanted to come home. I learned a lot of good things. A lot of what I learned was we do things in Bowling Green the very same as a majority of the nation. And that is a good thing! There are a few things that we don't do the same, but you know what, what we do works so.....if it aint broke don't fix it!
I did not like the plane ride. I think riding in the back of that ambulance 2 weeks ago was much smoother than that ride, especially the ride up there. The ride back was not as bumpy.

It has been a long day and I am tired, so I am ending this right now, please remember to love each other and to remember each other when you pray. I need the prayers of my friends and relatives. I will remember each of you in my prayers. Also, please remember my friend Jennifer in your prayers. She needs new lungs. She is going to UK to be evaluated, passed the first part today and has more testing coming up.

I love y'all!
To be continued...............