Tuesday, September 20, 2011

It's been a few days since my last post

I am still using my CPAP, but the past 3 nights sleep just hasn't happened. I keep the mask on, toss and turn, turn and toss. 2, maybe 3 hours and I am wide awake again. Breathing (or lack of) doesn't appear to be the issue. I don't know what it is, but doesn't appear to be that. I haven't been feeling the best, like something I ate didn't agree with me, but no real problems. I don't know what it is. Maybe tonight I will sleep. I guess part of it is I worry too much. I worry about things I can't change. I need to remember the Serenity Prayer. I really do. It does apply, just have to learn to make it part of my nature maybe. Suggestions? Post on my wall!
Words to live by.....
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference.
Yesterday marked the 6th anniversary of the death of a special young man. This young was a good friend of Nick's and would come here, just open the door and say "hi mom" and go on up to Nick's room. They fought like brothers and made up about as soon as they were mad at each other. Always. And it is a thousand wonders Nick was not with them that evening. He was working with his dad that day and was exhausted. That is the only reason he was home. I don't know what God's plans were for this to happen. I just know it did and it showed a community how to come together to support a family in a time of grief and loss. You could not tell who was who over the next days and weeks. And that is how it is supposed to be. We have relationship with that family like our own. I might not see them for weeks or months (pass their house every day) and the thing is, if I call them at any hour of the day or night they would be here and vice versa.

I think this is about all for tonight. I am not going to remind you how many days until anything tonight. Just remember the WVFD hayride and haunted house is coming right up.....don't miss it!

I love all y'all!
To be continued..............


  1. Sounds like you need something to relax you before going to bed. I try to read just before going to sleep. It helps me to forget about the worries and stresses of the day or the coming day. Plus, reading makes my eyes tired which helps me to go to sleep too. Just a thought. I know how rough it is if you aren't sleeping well.

  2. Thanks Jeanette! I will try anything!