Just a reminder that in just over 2 1/2 weeks, we will be beginning our "Thankful For" posts as our first Facebook status of each day. These past few days have really put my faith to the test. How about yours? The Bible speaks of faith. It talks about having faith the size of a grain of mustard seed. Having just that much faith, I mean really having it, can move a mountain. One of my problems is doubt. It sneaks right in and shields that faith so that I can't see it. Then ugly, depressing thoughts come into my head. Did Ricky die because I lost my faith? That thought has haunted me time and time again. If I had enough faith and truly believed he would be healed, would he have been? Those questions run across my mind many times a month. Especially if I am not feeling well... depressed a bit maybe. I tell you I had faith he would be healed. I had faith that when they did that MRI December 1, 2009 just prior to surgery that the tumor would be gone and Dr. Hampf would come out and tell me no need for the surgery. Didn't happen. After they took him from holding to the OR, I went back out to the waiting room. I sat down with the many friends and relatives who had come to wait with us. It came to me to pray. I went straight into that bathroom and did just that and got through to my Lord and when I came out, He was telling me "trust Me" and I did and I still do as difficult as it is sometimes. I still hear those words. I still believe God has a plan for each of us and it is His will, not ours that will be done. Ours is to be willing to trust in Him and have the faith the size of a grain of mustard seed. And go on. And you know that a grain of mustard seed is very tiny. It is only about the size of the opening in the "o" I just typed. Doesn't take much, does it?
How does this tie into our November Thankful posts? You tell me. OK, I will tell you what I think about it. You knew that, didn't you. I believe when our faith is tested, and it has been and it will be, that is when we show God we are who we say we are when something doesn't turn out the way we want, we must be like Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego and have faith that however it turns out, however God's plan for us works out, that His plan, not ours is and must be. And we must find joy in that - however difficult that is. So be thankful for what we have in our lives, not upset for what we do not have. Oh, and that is so difficult sometimes. (if you don't know who Shadrach Meshach and Abednego are, I refer you to The Holy Bible Daniel 3:23).
Can you imagine? The message from Daniel 3:23 was sent to me through 3 different people (2 preachers and a friend) before I got it. Sometimes you just have to be blunt to me for me to catch on. It was at that point my grief began to heal.
Please continue to remember the Wolf and Priddy families in your prayers - prayers for comfort and peace. Prayer works. I know it does. Many went up for us. I know for sure because I could not have made it through without them.
I love all y'all
To be continued..............
King James Version (KJV)
4 Let all those that seek thee rejoice and be glad in thee: and let such as love thy salvation say continually, Let God be magnified.